Frustrated as a child and loving Diapers

Any one have the same feeling and experiences as I did as a child? It's kind of a gender thing.

When I was a young boy, and diaper lover, for me I always was a DL. I always seemed frustrated on the point of being associated with the care of babies. The thing for me was, I would have loved to have been able to take interest in babies and the care of babies. I was intrigued by this thought. When I was really young I sometimes wanted to play with dolls. On occasion I got the chance. This was because I had an older sister and friends of hers who played dolls, and to their objections I would be allowed to participate in doll play. But, even at my youngest age I knew this was not what boys were support to be interested in, dolls and taking care of babies. Mind you, at the same time I was all boy and wanted nothing to do with being a girl. I did most things a boy would do, but I still had this thing about taking care of babies. Now this was back in the mid to late 60's and things were still kind of boys on one side and girls on the other. So I always knew I could not show any real big interest in something that was what was for Girls, or MOMMIES! Later on too I still felt this way. I loved to try and hear what the mothers were saying about their babies, especially diapering needs. I also felt I had to be careful and not show to much interest in a girl subject. I was always so frustrated by being a boy, wanting to be a boy, but still wanting to be able to be in on baby rearing and the like. I always envied the girls in this, no one would think twice if a girl took interest in babies, baby items, and care of babies. If a boy took such interest in these things, you just know heads would turn and it wasn't good. The girls always were thought to be the best baby sitters too.

Now I know there were exceptions to this whole concept. Boys who had younger siblings and were expected to care for them for one example. But to me that's different, that's more necessity. I'm talking about the desirer to do so when there was no need.

Does any one else have any feelings like mine? Or if you just want to add something, from any side? Being a boy, or being a girl, or other for that matter.

I may not have expressed myself as well as I might like, but I think there may be others who have the same feeling and experiences?

Well for me it started young i remeber my mother diapering me cant belive i remember that but for some reason i do. then for a while i didnt think about diapers. I think in early teen years right before puberty i stated liking them again. It was fustrating to me because i thought i was the only teenage boy intrested in diapers so i felt weird but they always excted me. then when i was about 20 i had a medical problem nerve wise and since then i need them. know i dont if i like them as much because i have no choice but for some reason deep inside i like the feel of them and the feel of a motherly type putting me in them, so far its only been nurses doing it to me but wow what a feeling to be diaperd by someone even if its nurses and you are sick. oh well dont know where im going with this one just random thoughts sorry lol. See i know i shouldnt like them because i need them but its fustrating becuse deep inside i love them from a early childhood all the way through adulthood its been the one cosistent thing that excites me. so i feel fustrated that i like these things and shouldnt but boy do like these things. ???

I remember being diaper by my mother also. I have one vivid memory of it anyway, it must have been at bedtime when I still needed them for that.

Anyway, I always wanted to watch when babies were around and being tended to, but I was afraid someone would notice me taking to much interest in that. And that was something boys didn't do, girls took care of babies and were interested in baby care.

Luvs It.

I felt the same way he did. not knowing why these feelings are happening.

I think I was attracted to diapers at age 5or6-- at least I really liked wearing them

but I was ashamed of my feeling and hid them. So I tried to avoid showing interest in

anything babyish including babysitting. My mother kept me in diapers so long I was

afraid if I showed any interest-- she would "turn me back into a baby" and there I

would stay. I had a rather tortured childhood, conflicted with these feelings because

secretly I wanted to wear diapers and be babied-- I somehow equated it with love.

So you see,, I can understand where you're coming from- Now I like my baby side

and enjoy it as a relaxing passtime.

I have alwase been a dl i have no memory of when i wasnt one i would enjoy a life as a child agian

Luvs it. I know you posted this quite a while ago, but I kind of agree with you about the gender thing. Good part of being a DL, I can now take care of a baby any time I want ... Me

I had to hide my plastic pants that i stole from my baby brothers because if my mom found them,she'd force them on me and shame me and spank me in them and then she'd rip them off me or she'd just rip them up in front of me and asking what was wrong with me.

I had to hide my diapers cause mom didn't understand why I liked wearing them and would throw them away and talk to me about them and she even threatened to make me go to counseling because of it it was frustrating cause I liked wearing them

I wet my bed until my last year of high school when my bed wetting stopped. Throughout all those years I had to wear diapers to bed every night, and because my mother didn't trust me to be responsible, I wore diapers when traveling any where in our car, and other times when she might have a harder time finding a restroom for me. As I grew older, went through puberty and had all the normal feeling and urges any boy my age had, I began to struggle with what it meant to be the only boy I knew who still wore diapers, who still couldn't reliably keep his pants dry while at the same time knowing how much I liked wearing them, how I looked forward every night to my mother pinning a fresh diaper on me before bedtime and changing my wet diapers in the morning. I know how wrong it was but I started having erections when mom diapered around the time puberty began, and eventually nature took its course and I ejaculated in my diapers. This caused no end of internal turmoil and conflict, because by the time I was 14 or 15 I knew I shouldn't be wearing diapers any longer, I was too old for that, but I simultaneously knew I couldn't or wouldn't stop because I felt so good knowing I would wet myself, and eventually play with myself until I came. The thing is, in the end diapers always prevailed, despite all the social norms that tried to force me away from them.

I was diapered at night until I was about 6. I still had occasional night wets, but not often enough for Mom to do anything about it. I hated waking up wet and cold. Still do! Wet and warm I don't even notice!

So I tried to take things into my own hands. I found some of my old cloth diapers and a pair of vinyl pants. Of course they tore, me being a few sizes too big for them.

I would sneak disposables from neighbors when I had the chance. A few times they just disappeared but no one ever said anything. My sister found some once. She was very noisy about it but that was it.

I wished that I was diapered because I had difficulty holding it and hated to be wet and cold. Wet diapers are SO DIFFERENT from wet clothes!

It wasn't until I was a teenager that I appreciated the mere feeling of being diapered. A few decades later it's still more of a comfort than a stimulation.

The beauty of a diaper, seeing diapers and how eye catching a diaper is, touching a diaper, how one feels in your hands,I remember my whole life, diapers would really get my attention.nothing to do with toddlers in any perverted way, but doesn't a diaper look so nice on a little person,I have vivid memories of the diaper aisle at the store, my entire life.many times I would be interested in opening a package just to look and feel the smooth plastic,I remember Huggies really were my favorite diapers, they came in small boxes and were just like underwear but with tapes, the thick padding, the softness , the elastic,then Huggies and Pampers came out with boys and girls diapers,I always noticed over the years that the numbers on the packages kept increasing,I literally was so fascinated with Huggies,I had times where I would cut two Huggies and tape them together making a wider back, then I would cut a short part of another Huggies, and tape it to the back part.all my ideas and time, to simply have a large enough Huggies to actually fit,I was that determined to wear Huggies,I took a bike ride and bought some Huggies one evening, about dark time, iam in the driveway with my bright purple box of Huggies and my mom and sisters rolled up, headlights right on me, with my diapers, caught red handed,I quickly took my diapers to my window to get them in,no matter how or what I was doing in the midst of making a diaper score,I was caught, funny to think about it now.i remember a coworker approached my car at Walmart,my new diaper score was a nice, big, obvious package of attends,a very nice adult diaper.it was easy to say they were for someone else,my best friend opened my glove box in my car so he could roll a joint, here's two big adult diapers,wow, I was busted with my diapers so many times by different people, two buddies in my room visiting,I returned and they held up the diapers I. Had under a blanket.i was always heard, people often said I hear you're diapers, my diaper waist band shows often and people teased me.what I experienced and the endless times people busted me,I still refused to give up diapers,I had many people very curious for the longest time, buying xl Huggies and classmates in the store telling me they are big enough to fit me.wasnt I the most consumed young teen about my diapers