Frustrated as a child and loving Diapers

Any one have the same feeling and experiences as I did as a child? It's kind of a gender thing.

When I was a young boy, and diaper lover, for me I always was a DL. I always seemed frustrated on the point of being associated with the care of babies. The thing for me was, I would have loved to have been able to take interest in babies and the care of babies. I was intrigued by this thought. When I was really young I sometimes wanted to play with dolls. On occasion I got the chance. This was because I had an older sister and friends of hers who played dolls, and to their objections I would be allowed to participate in doll play. But, even at my youngest age I knew this was not what boys were support to be interested in, dolls and taking care of babies. Mind you, at the same time I was all boy and wanted nothing to do with being a girl. I did most things a boy would do, but I still had this thing about taking care of babies. Now this was back in the mid to late 60's and things were still kind of boys on one side and girls on the other. So I always knew I could not show any real big interest in something that was what was for Girls, or MOMMIES! Later on too I still felt this way. I loved to try and hear what the mothers were saying about their babies, especially diapering needs. I also felt I had to be careful and not show to much interest in a girl subject. I was always so frustrated by being a boy, wanting to be a boy, but still wanting to be able to be in on baby rearing and the like. I always envied the girls in this, no one would think twice if a girl took interest in babies, baby items, and care of babies. If a boy took such interest in these things, you just know heads would turn and it wasn't good. The girls always were thought to be the best baby sitters too.

Now I know there were exceptions to this whole concept. Boys who had younger siblings and were expected to care for them for one example. But to me that's different, that's more necessity. I'm talking about the desirer to do so when there was no need.

Does any one else have any feelings like mine? Or if you just want to add something, from any side? Being a boy, or being a girl, or other for that matter.

I may not have expressed myself as well as I might like, but I think there may be others who have the same feeling and experiences?

Well for me it started young i remeber my mother diapering me cant belive i remember that but for some reason i do. then for a while i didnt think about diapers. I think in early teen years right before puberty i stated liking them again. It was fustrating to me because i thought i was the only teenage boy intrested in diapers so i felt weird but they always excted me. then when i was about 20 i had a medical problem nerve wise and since then i need them. know i dont if i like them as much because i have no choice but for some reason deep inside i like the feel of them and the feel of a motherly type putting me in them, so far its only been nurses doing it to me but wow what a feeling to be diaperd by someone even if its nurses and you are sick. oh well dont know where im going with this one just random thoughts sorry lol. See i know i shouldnt like them because i need them but its fustrating becuse deep inside i love them from a early childhood all the way through adulthood its been the one cosistent thing that excites me. so i feel fustrated that i like these things and shouldnt but boy do like these things. ???

I remember being diaper by my mother also. I have one vivid memory of it anyway, it must have been at bedtime when I still needed them for that.

Anyway, I always wanted to watch when babies were around and being tended to, but I was afraid someone would notice me taking to much interest in that. And that was something boys didn't do, girls took care of babies and were interested in baby care.

Luvs It.

I felt the same way he did. not knowing why these feelings are happening.

I think I was attracted to diapers at age 5or6-- at least I really liked wearing them

but I was ashamed of my feeling and hid them. So I tried to avoid showing interest in

anything babyish including babysitting. My mother kept me in diapers so long I was

afraid if I showed any interest-- she would "turn me back into a baby" and there I

would stay. I had a rather tortured childhood, conflicted with these feelings because

secretly I wanted to wear diapers and be babied-- I somehow equated it with love.

So you see,, I can understand where you're coming from- Now I like my baby side

and enjoy it as a relaxing passtime.

I have alwase been a dl i have no memory of when i wasnt one i would enjoy a life as a child agian

Luvs it. I know you posted this quite a while ago, but I kind of agree with you about the gender thing. Good part of being a DL, I can now take care of a baby any time I want ... Me

I had to hide my plastic pants that i stole from my baby brothers because if my mom found them,she'd force them on me and shame me and spank me in them and then she'd rip them off me or she'd just rip them up in front of me and asking what was wrong with me.

I had to hide my diapers cause mom didn't understand why I liked wearing them and would throw them away and talk to me about them and she even threatened to make me go to counseling because of it it was frustrating cause I liked wearing them

I wet my bed until my last year of high school when my bed wetting stopped. Throughout all those years I had to wear diapers to bed every night, and because my mother didn't trust me to be responsible, I wore diapers when traveling any where in our car, and other times when she might have a harder time finding a restroom for me. As I grew older, went through puberty and had all the normal feeling and urges any boy my age had, I began to struggle with what it meant to be the only boy I knew who still wore diapers, who still couldn't reliably keep his pants dry while at the same time knowing how much I liked wearing them, how I looked forward every night to my mother pinning a fresh diaper on me before bedtime and changing my wet diapers in the morning. I know how wrong it was but I started having erections when mom diapered around the time puberty began, and eventually nature took its course and I ejaculated in my diapers. This caused no end of internal turmoil and conflict, because by the time I was 14 or 15 I knew I shouldn't be wearing diapers any longer, I was too old for that, but I simultaneously knew I couldn't or wouldn't stop because I felt so good knowing I would wet myself, and eventually play with myself until I came. The thing is, in the end diapers always prevailed, despite all the social norms that tried to force me away from them.