Well, my wife finally knows the whole story about diapers, I mean everything. She knows that I faked the whole thing about needing them for medical reasons for bedwetting and that I'm wearing diapers solely because I want to.
My wife got home before I did today. No big deal. As usual, the first thing I had to do was change. I did that and began to do some laundry. My wife was making dinner and said it was going to be ready in about a half an hour.
We were talking about stuff and my wife - Cindy asked how I was doing an all. I decided to just tell here the truth. I can't remember it exactly but it was something like this. I said; well do you want the truth? She said, I don't know do I? I said well the truth is, I don't have to wear diapers. She replied, are things better? I said not quite. What I mean is that I'm only wearing diapers because I want to. She didn't say anything to that but got a strange look so I quickly continued. I said that for some weird reason, I've always wanted to wear diapers and that one day it just struck me to concoct a reason to be able to wear diapers. She said, you mean its like a fetish thing? I said no, its not sexual at all, I just like wearing and peeing in diapers. She said, so you are ok physically? I said yes. I can hold it just fine, but I really don't want to. I said bluntly. I like to pee myself and wet the bed. She said well, on one had, it's a relief that you are ok but this is really weird. Do you want me to change you or something? I said no, I'm not into that sort of thing and it creeps me out. I just want to be able to wear diapers all the time. She said; I need to digest this a bit. I said I was sorry that I told her I had a physical problem and that I've been lying for nearly 3 months. She didn't say anything until we were eating dinner when she suddenly smiled and then giggled. She said, So does this mean you intentionally peed yourself while you were driving your truck? And I said, yes. That was when I had the idea to fake the trauma so I decided to just 'wet' myself to make it look like I had a problem. She just laughed and said, well, I guess you are serious. You really do like to wet yourself. I can't even drive your truck but you actually pissed in it! This is too funny.
At this point I knew she was ok with it. She was 'laughing it off' if you know what I mean.
I can't believe it. You really want to wear diapers!? I said, yes. Its something that has been going around in my head all my life. I really don't want to stop. I just like being able to pee whenever I want to.
She said, well this is certainly strange but as long as I don't have to do anything, its ok by me. But really, do you get turned on or anything. I said, no, not at all. It isn't sexual, I just like to wet myself.
She laughed again and said, some guys turn 40 and have to buy a penis car. You turn 40 and decide to wear diapers. I can see why you thought you had to make up such a story. Had you told me you wanted to start wearing diaper, I would have suggested you have your head examined but I guess you are serious.
Then she asked about sleeping in the daybed. She asked, what is that about? I said that it was a great idea she had. It is much more comfortable that sleeping in a thick diaper but I really, really like to wet the bed. I said that I didn't know how to describe it but I just really enjoy peeping in bed. I said I like being able to wet myself but wetting the bed is a lot of fun. I said that sometime I hope it happens automatically but so far that isn't the case. I described how I wake up but I usually fall back asleep while I'm peeing.
She kept saying how she just can't get over it. In a way its so funny that I like to wet myself. She said, you, a 6 foot 6 biker like guy wearing a diaper because you like it! Wow! Now I've seen everything!
Then she said, well I should have a surprise for you in a day or so. I said what? She said that earlier in the week she ordered an absorbent mattress pad for our bed so I didn't have to worry so much about little leaks. This way I could sleep on my side and not have to worry about damaging the mattress. I said that will be a big help. But she said not to even think about wetting our regular bed. I said no, I wasn't about to do that. She also said that I can't sleep on the day bed every night either. I assured her that I wasn't about to do that because our bed is more comfortable and she was in it too. I didn't want to not sleep next to her.
We talked about her mother and I said that I would tell her Saturday night when she comes over. We are both sort if interested in how she will handle it.
We talked some more about how I just really like doing it. I told her about my 'rules' and bout the website and all. I don't expect her to check the site out or anything. She was impressed at my level of commitment.
I told her everything.
I also asked her some hard questions to make sure she was really on board with how I wanted this to go. I said that I really want to have no control and just pee whenever it happens. I said that is how I've been living for nearly 12 weeks and I don't want to change it for any reason. She assured me it was fine but I said I really mean it. If I'm out in public and my diaper leaks, I'm not going to hold it. I'm going to treat it just as though I can't stop. I may have to excuse myself to change but I won't hold it. I said that if we just had sex I better get into a diaper fast because I usually have to pee shortly afterwards and I'm not going to hold it. I said that except for when I was sleeping on the daybed, in the past 12 weeks, I've always worn a diaper except in the shower. I said that it not entirely about the diaper but about peeing without any inhibition. That was what I really enjoyed.
She thought about it and said ok, if you are serious that you really want to wear a diaper and all, I'll look at it like you have no control and that you can't help yourself. But you had also better treat yourself as though you have no control as well.
She also said that any supplies I need to by are not going to be household items and that any money used from the household accounts will have to be paid back. (She is rather practical about money.)
I was wrong in one aspect, she didn't suspect at all. She had no clue at all. But she is relieved that there is nothing wrong with my physically. Mentally is another matter but since I'm not hurting anyone it isn't a big deal. Its not like I have a gambling addiction or spend all evening a the local bar.
But she also can't stop giggling about it. She'll just turn to me and start smiling or giggling.
There you have it. This is the condensed version. We talked quite a lot and covered a lot more than just this.
The bottom line is that she is the great person I married and she doesn't have a problem with her husband wearing diapers. She is not into it at all. But she is ok with me wearing diapers 24/7.
I feel really great right now. Life is good.