When did you find it hardest to deal with

For me the hardest period that I went through was whilst in the military, I joined the army to escape a rotten existance in a life that was becoming somewhat horrible, at the time of taking the Queens oath, I never gave a lot of thought to my baby side, and the suddenly I found my self plunged into the macho world of becoming a serving soldier, for the next three years I was forced to hide my fetish ( If thats what it is ) from the new world arround me, the army incites a macho drinking fighting culture in which there is no place for oddities..? especially a love of nappies, I found this area hard to cope with especially in Germany where the oppertunity for sexual fullfillment is everywhere, and your down town with all your mates on a Saturday night and their sole aim is to go out and get laid,somthing horrible happened to me as a kid, and this episode forms part of a book that I am currently writing, but without going into too much detal, this period of my life left me scared of sexual activity,whilst my comfort zone, my loveof being nappied remaind strong, up until meetig my wife I remained a virgin, and throughout the stresses of army life the one thing that I craved the nmost was my nappies, this did,nt make me any less a good soldier, I went on to serve in the Falklands war, for which I recieved a medal, but from the little me perspective I found things very hard to cope with, just wondered if others have gone through similar experiencies.

I did three years in the military and as you say it is a very difficult time with regards to diapers, the only time that I was able to indulge was now and again whilst home on leave, I was based just outside London at first before moving to Germany, and obviously it was,nt un common for a group of us to spend a day in Soho, we would all buy mags and vidios to take back and I always bought the early Janus magazines as these at that time I think were the best available as they covered whole range of subjects, including adults in diapers and the letters sections were always great, but no one ever got to know why I liked this publication so much, I used to just tell them I preffered books with more text than pictures, and then eventually all the lads in our room would get to read them, I remember lying in my bed one night whilst my mate read out one of the letters about an adult baby, and felt compelled to join in laughing and saying how sick it was, if only they had ever known how I really felt.

I made the military a career I stayed in for 20 years. It was hard to enjoy my diapers living in the barracks with other soldiers. It got a little easier when I was a NCO(Non Commissioned Officer for you civilians out there). I had a room to my self but I was subject to surprise inspections and my secret discovered. The worst part is that my bed wetting returned about 5 years before I was able to retire. This was very hard to to keep a closely guarded secret but I managed to make it. It was usually only when I drank to much or very tired that I would wake to a wet bed and or diapers. Not long after retiring I started to wet almost every night and I gave up alcohol soon after retiring. So my love of diapers is still strong and I enjoy waking in the morning to a wet diaper and bed. Oh by the way my diaper of choice is cloth with plastic pants.

I know wut ya mean biff.. for a long i thought is this just me and my diapers??? then came the internet along with a sigh of relef and a gasp of woah.. anywho it can be kinda tough figerin out the whole diaper thing but eventually it all comes around.

Ditto to biff and crazy. yep i was freak to me at least until 20 then it started in the hospital boy if those nurses only new the monster they created.

For me is when my brother was died. that's when everything falls apart

I'm not a diaper user, but I do like seeing others (girls only) in them. Just liking them was hard for me because i thought it was gross of me to have a diaper fetish. The hardest time was probably telling my girlfriend. I mean damnit i told her after christmas this year, and thats only a month from now. I promised her I'd tell her when she got back and hoped she'd forgotten, but remembered, and it literally took me 5 minutes to spill it. She told me she thought it was creepy but didnt really care. She even said she'd try it out. Really lucky to have her. 😁

I put my three years in the Army as some of you did. But for me I think the hardest time I have ever had dealing with my diaper fetish was after my divorce. She pinned the whole problem on me and my "Pissy Diapers" and "Girly Cloths" Well that set me on my but and I got to thinking. All I could come up with is- she's probably right , I am sick.

Well that was then and like many of you the "NET" helped a lot. I'm well adjusted now and have been in a 15 year long relationship. So I have no problems with wearing and using diapers . My SO also likes to have me in diapers. I love wearing diapers and I'm quite happy with myself.

I spent 10 years in the Navy and never would have thought of trying to sneek diapers onto the ship. Some of you are much more brave than I am I guess. I know that even if someone isn't around while you're opening your rack or in your workspace they could just as easily walk in and that would be the end of that. If I was doing it I always did it off of the ship. I checked into a hotel room while off duty and did it there. Same thing I'll probably end up doing now because my wife doesn't want me doing it in the house.

But one of the hardest times for me was when I was living onboard the ship I was on, I would go up to my workcenter at night and look at pictures and read stories pertaing to this fetish. It turns out that the next morning one of my shipmates had some spare time on his hands and decided to look at the temp files that the computer saves. Turns out he pulled up a picture of a woman wearing a diaper. I was in the room and was like I have no idea where that came from. Thank god he didn't make a bigger deal out of it. I'm out of the military now but I still clear the cookies and temp files when I visit sites pertaining to this just incase my wife decides to check on my activities.

For meit was when I was in reform school for nine mothes and i could wear my diapers and plastic pants. I was really depressed.

For me it was before i got the internet at home. I had no clue what AB of DL or infantilism etc. even MEANT! Always wondered if there were others like me, wondered if other adults wore diapers just for fun, were attracted to others in diapers... Sites like this are AWESOME! cheers!