Excitement and Trepidation

Wow. I haven't felt this way in years. I've been sick for two weeks with a sore throat (not tonsillitis, no pus, no rash, no fever) and I need to go to the school clinic to get checked out and hopefully get some western antibiotics. Everyone cross your fingers for me!

But it's not the feeling sick that I'm "wowing" over.

The only thing is, the staff here only speak Chinese so I've asked a friend if she can come in with me to translate but what if she can't? I know I'm being silly, but I'm so starved for anything medfet related these days. And I know it's going to be a lot shorter and a lot less exiting than my fantasy is cooking up, but what the hell. Me in the clinic. Tongue depressor. Saying 'ahh'. MAYBE a little heart and lung exam if I'm very very lucky. All the while my friend is in the room watching. I HATE being watched during an exam. Or do I?

I've never gotten off on embarrassment before. Maybe my fetish is taking a metamorphosis. Exiting!

Well that was a bust,. Waited for almost two hours and not so much as even a cursory exam! Forget my desire for one, the guy just whipped out the box of antibiotics without even looking at my throat. Eh, whatever. I was actually feeling better, I just wanted to be touched in a clinical setting.

Le sigh,