Past to present

When I stumbled across this site I was apprehensive about joining. The experiences I had as a child from receiving loads of suppositories had taken me from kid who didn't like them to a teenager who got so turned on by the sensations and the whole process. From being summonsed to my bedroom, to having to lay on my back, to having my pants pulled down and my legs lifted up and back. Then seeing the clear glycerine suppository in my mums fingers being almost lovingly lubricated by her, before its cold sensation appeared at my anus, follwed by the gentle yet firm insertion of it all the way up my tight hole. Now as a mature man, I cannot escape the erotic experiences. Now I see it as erotic, but letting time judge, was it abuse? I was controlled totally even down to my bowel movements and this has had a huge impact on my life. Maybe I should just accept that I am now a fetsh lover and embrace its kinkiness. I would be keen to hear from others re their stand on this, i.e. do we just celebrate the arousing experiences we had forced upon us, or try to eradicate the way it has made us feel?

Your experiences are interesting as i never knew ennemas ect were used much in the uk. I can fully understand now why you have a fetish . I grew up hating haircuts being shorn short from barbers i know have a fetish for haircuts barbers capes ect. I love to chat stories with you look me up silver56uk@yahoo.co.uk.

I find medical stuff enemmas /suppositories very interesting too.

I think getthejellies has asked a great question .... "do we just celebrate the arousing experiences we had forced upon us, or try to eradicate the way it has made us feel?"

I personally don't think we can just eradicate the way we feel because those early experiences ingrained themselves into our sexuality at a very formative age. We have managed to take something that we hated and subsequently used it to derive arousal and pleasure. Once that happens there is no turning back the clock. I also loathed having suppositories, and the total loss of control over the situation, but now I can pull on all those early memories to my advantage. If it was abuse, I think it was well intentioned abuse because back in those days, moms thought that regularity was extremely important in maintaining a child's health. That would then justify their actions, even over their child's fierce objections. I don't think that they thought however what the psychological consequences of those actions would be afterwards.

I do not think you can "eradicate" those feelings. You might forget them but I doubt they can be erased. Part of the problem is we enjoy many of those feelings today and consequently, they will probably be historically attached to what happened in our lives earlier. If the early experiences had be really negative, distasteful and unpleasant, I doubt we would find enjoyment in those events today; they would be gone from our memory.

The quick and simple answer to your question without me getting into a whole long post about the psycho bable I often tend to run on about is, just relax. Do what feels right to you, what makes you feel good. As long as you are not hurting anyone, just go with it. You have nothing to be afraid of, nor ashamed of. Another important thing to remember, which we ALL have feared at some point or another is that, you are NOT alone. Remember that.

Mashie.

p.s. and please, if you have any other questions, feel free to ask the group. We are all friendly, open, and we don't bite, unless that is you ask, lol.

Thanks Mashie, I am getting more used to the site now and I certainly now know I am not alone in my fetish!

Hey! gethejellies,relax, and celebrate! you're in great company here,we're the priveledged few who enjoy our fetish,many only dream of it,Hell if it feels good do it!!

The pioneering sex researcher, Alfred Kinsey, said the only abnormal sexual activity was not to have any sexual activity.

The best way to describe it is "it is what it is" dont fight it or try and figure it out in the end it doesnt matter