SPH = small penis humiliation

Was always embarrassed by having a little dick (4 inches fully erect) when I was younger and often dreaded "the reveal" during encounters with women, wondering about their reaction. One was so dissatisfied with my performance she broke out a tape measure to humiliate me.

It led me to mostly frequent sex workers in my 20s. I was a regular at an Asian massage parlor some 35 years ago. The older ladies there often told me I shouldn't be doing this and should find a girlfriend because I'm good-looking. One time I grew tired a lady asking me why I don't have a girlfriend, so I just blurted out "We broke up. She said my dick is too small." fabricating a story just to get her to quit asking. She was extremely sympathetic, telling me my dick isn't small. "Nice ding-dong, like mushroom," she said of the head, which does stand out. She proceeded to tell me this imaginary girlfriend surely wasn't good enough for me and that I should seek a "nice girl." Then she gave me one of the best handjobs I had gotten there as I exploded in a thundering climax in her fist and all over my stomach.

Fast forward to today, several years after a longtime marriage dissolved (not related to me having a small cock), I've learned to compensate by being a fantastic pussy-eater. Two years ago started eating ass and ladies have enjoyed that, too. Still seeing only sex workers, but I'm confident if and when I date again I will thoroughly satisfy the lady.

I think men worry much more about penis size than women do.

Before I was married I had partners who were, shall we say, very well endowed, and some who certainly weren't. It's not what you have, it's what you do with it.

I'm not into sissification/feminization (even though my big sister dressed me up in her girls clothes on several occasions when I was a toddler) but I do jerk off to sph when I'm feeling depressed(which only makes me feel even more depressed so I dont do it often).

I got into sph due to my sister catching me masturbating when I was 12 and a half and she was 16. A few days later she had a sleepover with two friends and since our rooms were right next to each other I overheard her tell them my penis was small before they all laughed hysterically(I posted a more detailed account of this in the "Have you ever been caught masturbating?" thread).

I remember it felt like I had been stabbed in the heart and then I wondered if my mom and other female relatives cared about penis size which made me feel like throwing up. I dont know what they were expecting from me at that age. I would estimate that it was only 4 to 4.5 inches hard back then. Now its 6.5 inches hard but I'm still insecure about it thanks to my sister and all the movies I saw with sph scenes even when I was a boy.

I am only 2 inches hard and one wide. I love humiliation, the best oart is when my wife compares it to her lovers

Mine is maybe two inches soft. I like going to showers at the gym or gay bathhouses. Other people see it and think it's small I'm sure, but in the gay world it marks me as a bottom which really turns me on!