As I was very shy with girls, I remained a virgin till I was 21. But from 14 on, I have been masturbating quite a lot, thinking about all the girls I did not dare to speak to, and anal sex was of course, part of my fantasies.
I was 22 the first time I had anal sex. I had eventually found a girlfriend (or she had found me, as she took the initiative). She was just my age, but was much more experienced, having had several lovers. She taught me a lot, she accepted to have my penis in her mouth, but she was reluctant even to let me caress her buttocks as she was convinced she had a big ass, which was not at all true in my opinion. So, anal sex for her was out of the question.
After we had started dating, we had a wonderful summer of love in Paris, before she left for Dublin where she was to study. Our relation stood the test, and the following spring, I visited her a few days and we had a lot of sex;
One morning after a busy night, I woke up before her and could not get back to sleep. My girlfriend was fast asleep on her stomach and her rolled over nightrobe left her glorious bottom to my view. I spent a long time just watching her splendid ass. My pulse accelerated and my penis erected. After some time, I put my hands on her buttocks and started caressing them. The feeling was so soft, my erection got harder. Then, the idea came and I could not resist the temptation. As she was awakening and asked, "what the hell are you doing, you know I don't like you to touch my bottom", I parted her butt checks and put my erect penis at the entrance ot her rectum and gave a strong pouch. She protested loudly, "please, don't, not like this" but I was in and quickly started moving in and out of her ass. Strangely, after her strong protest, she adopted a prostated attitude, just crying and sobbing softly, but she told me with an angry voice: "OK, fuck my fat ass, if that turns you on, but do it quick, because I can tell you its hurts...and don't ever again pretend you love me". Too excited to stop, I went on and came rather quickly in my girlfriend's ass. "Now, get this dity piece of meat out of my ass, whatever fat it may be", she said. I withdrew, and she remained prostated on the bed, still crying and sobbing softly. i did feel awful.
I did have remorse and i was afraid I had ruined my relationship with my girlfriend. I remember all the phrases she said to me on that rainy Dublin day: "you raped me", "you treated me like a whore, like an animal", "you have humiliated me","I will never forgive you for that" , "how can you get excited by my fat ass, you're a pervert"., "I hate you, I want you to die"
But, to my surprise and fortunately, she calmed down by the evening and we laughed together to a Woody Allen film on local television that night, before reconciliating on the pillow, making love the traditional way.
Durind the five more days I spent in Dublin, our relation was, so to say, back to normal, we made love a lot (no anal sex) and we did not speak anymore about the "incident".The night before I was to take an early flight back to Paris, with tears in her eyes, she made a very caring fellatio on me and we made love very tenderly and softly, then, as I was about to fall asleep, she said to me:"I must tell you, I did enjoy it the other day, please do it again before you leave, fuck my ass". So we did it. She obviously had an orgasm, and quite a big one, when I came myself."It's so good to feel your semen coming out in my ass" she said.
After this episode, my relation with this girl lasted for several more years and we often had anal sex.