So, I was thinking today about how some of us have found people that are willing to play doctor with us. It's obviously not the kind of thing that is usually easy to blurt out and talk about, and it's oftentimes scary to ask someone that first time or even to bring up the topic and kind of see where it goes.
I was thinking specifically of someone I really wanted the chance to play with. I used to be roommates with a girl who I became very close friends with. I was a lot more sexually experienced than her and we used to sometimes talk about our sex lives. Also, we had seen each other naked on occasion-nothing sexual, just kind of running around in the morning showering and stuff like that. I knew I was bisexual, but it had been a while since I had really had feelings of arousal around another female, and this girl was "my type". She was the girl next door type-average build, pretty face, red hair, and she was a good person. Loved her to pieces as a friend.
One day, she asks if she can talk to me. She tells me that she was curious, and had made an online dating profile trying to meet another woman. She also tells me about the crush she had on a lesbian acquiantance of ours, and while she is telling me this I can tell she is so nervous.
My first feelings were of compassion, since I could tell she was really worked up about telling me this, and my second (far less noble) thoughts were of how much I wanted her. Another thing about her-she had a very submissive personality and from our many late night conversations I knew that extended to the bedroom for her. I had already had fantasies about "playing doctor" with her, but had NEVER said anything to her because I didn't want to create sexual tension that could ruin the friendship.
It was a hard conversation for me to have with her. She knew that I had been with women before but had no idea how I felt about playing doctor with her, or anyone else for that matter. I didn't have any stuff (like a stethoscope, or whatever) around to clue her in either. After she was done talking and had calmed down some-I told her how I felt. I couldn't hold back either, and told her that I had had a crush on her for a very long time. We ended up kissing a little, and I was lucky enough to get her partially undressed. (She wouldn't take her panties off, but she let me reach inside them.) She was afraid to touch me much but did a little exploring, you could call it.
She wouldn't let me turn the lights on, and she wouldn't let me lay her down and sit up next to her to look at her. My plan, which I formulated in the few minutes it took for us to realize things were going to get physical, was to get her laying down and then start doing "doctor" type things without jumping right in and telling her exactly what I was doing....
I don't know why I am really writing this long post. I guess I just needed to get it out. Has anyone else here had a similar experience that they care to share about people that you either desperately wanted to tell, or "almost" got there with?