Mentality to Reality?

I have a question to put to y'all. I rediscovered the appeal of diapers about... ooh, a year ago? And since then, the idea has grown in my head to the point that it's one of my main fetishes.

The thing is, I'm in my last year of school, and am still living at home with my mother, so I haven't had a chance to try them out... and over the last month or two, I've been having trouble occasionally holding pee in (especally if I've just been to the toilet or had a drink). I'm in full health - I have seen no other change in my health. So I'm thinking it's a subconscious attempt by my head to get me back into diapers.

My question; has this happened to anyone? Being deprived of diapers (or anything really) then undergoing subconscious steps to achieve this desire?

Jessiminica--- In response to your question. First let me say that I am an old man compared to you. That said let me give you my opinion. The need for diapers and regressive behavior is born in the need to find a mental safe place and the need to be loved and nurtured. Diapering allows oneself to instantly change from the grownup world to a softer and gentile place, a place were you can spend some time as an infant, repairing and rebuilding your own self. It achieves the same end as pills used for relaxation, stress reduction and meditation. It can be combined with yoga as an inner peace pathway to the spirit. Most of us here use it as a self defense strategy, which works well and can be easily adopted in ones life. There are all kinds of products available today at a reasonable cost. There are many variations of this fetish, adult baby, diaper lover, plastic lover and so on. It will not harm you unless you let it. It is empowering in the sense that if you are well with yourself, you can deal with and be successful in the rest of your life. It’s a little like cocooning, where you enter into something as one thing and leave as a move talented, gifted thing. I have had girlfriends that really embraced the life style, some using it for sexual pleasure and others using it for just relaxation and some for both. For sexual pleasure when I was not around, they liked to put on a pair of plastic pants, add some warmed up yogurt (PH Balanced) to the inside crotch area and climb into bed, read a book and wait for the urge to self stimulate, relaxed and very aware of there on bodies and with the help of a good dream were able to have multiple orgasms with very little effort. (An electric tooth brush used on the outside of the plastic pants was VERY good) The plastic pants saved the sheets and created heat and sensation, and removed the urgency of cleaning up afterward allowing for more self indulgence. Diapering always followed and a period of dept relaxation and contentment. When I was there with them, it allowed us to take all the time in the world for both of us to be happy. It was not always sexual, sometimes it was just me giving her a bath, it drove her crazy when I washed her toes, and it was reciprocal and comforting and nurturing. We did not have to compete for each others love and respect. ENJOY all the feeling that you experience while diapered.

Mr. Sandbox, rarely do I read such inteligent and informative posts like that one. Maybe I go to the wrong places, but I think your post here is formidable. Thanks for sharing your thoughts, I really enjoyed reading it.

I think that for some,( I guess that includes me),it that we never got the nurturing and love as a baby and forced early toilet training that makes us wear diapers. Depending on what era you grew up it was either disposables or predisposable era, it was cloth and plastic panties, it is possibly the warmth and security that they bring that makes them so attracive, at least ,they are for me