Reenacting childhood spankings ?

How many on here are actually reenacting their childhood spanking scenarios ? Do you feel it therapeutic in dealing with residual childhood feelings ? Do you hope to reach climax as part of recreating what you experienced as a kid ?

Most of my adult sessions are some variation of this

When I meet adults for spankings I’m always looking for the “unicorn spanking.”

As a child I had some friends that came from religious homes that got spanked a lot and had no trouble telling the other kids all about it. I always thought it was so strange but then going to their houses their parents were always so nice, not what I expected in a home where I knew the kids were getting spanked a lot. It was always a head trip to me. I got spanked very seldomly and my parents were very busy and not too active in my life. I think deep in my subconscious I felt distant and neglected.

All that to say, I’m looking for the experience I felt I missed out on. The full ritualized “this hurts me more than it does you” pants down, over the knee, kicking and crying type of experience that my friends had. And unfortunately no matter how many times I scratch the itch it just gets more itchy.