Missing the boat completely

During my formative years, my mother suffered such a chronic and debilitating medical condition ( lupus ) that my own personal health care fell by the wayside. Having regular checkups and exams by a caring physician providing future medfet memories was a luxury that my parents' schedule and my mom's condition simply didn't allow.

Has anyone else here been in a similar rut?

For what it’s worth, the source of my medical fetish is exactly the opposite of what you missed out on. It came from being sexually abused by a physician, and when I first experienced sexual feelings, the only context I had to understand them was what I felt physically, not emotionally, during the abuse.

What gender and age group was the physician?

What gender and age group was the physician?

Are you asking about the one who molested me?

Just trying to understand the context. I know nothjng about your experience.

Just trying to understand the context. I know nothjng about your experience.

I am not going to write about the details. 55 years later I suffer from CPTSD and essentially cannot seek medical treatment except from one unique provider who gets me and respects my boundaries. That is all you need to know.

I am not going to write about the details. 55 years later I suffer from CPTSD and essentially cannot seek medical treatment except from one unique provider who gets me and respects my boundaries. That is all you need to know.

I'm sorry man. I wish you all the best on your continued healing journey.