Enemas and Sexuality | The beginning of a fetish. En…

Hello everyone. I'm new here. I'm 28 years old (male). I haven't quite figured out how to use this site yet, so I might be posting in the wrong section. I just wanted to tell you how I started doing enemas. It happened when I was very young. I think I was 6 or 7, maybe even a little younger. The only thing I remember is that I was staying with my aunt for about two weeks because our apartment was being renovated. (Our house was flooded). There were four of us: my mom, me, my aunt, and my cousin (she was 16 or 17 at the time). So, while we were staying with my aunt, about a week or a little more passed. And the story itself: I don't remember how or why it was allowed, I don't remember what happened next, whether they saw me in that state, and what the consequences were (if there were any?). That's all I remember. The bathroom door was wide open. I'm squatting. My cousin Anna (name changed) is on all fours in the bathroom. Her butt is facing the exit (towards me). There's a heating pad hanging on the radiator. She's moaning loudly, painfully, incessantly. I can clearly see her butt and vagina, and it was an instant fixation. I sat opposite her, panting heavily like a dog, my tongue hanging out. I couldn't tear myself away from this sight. I remember sitting like that for 5-7 minutes. The whole time, Anna didn't stop moaning. And I remember sitting and enjoying this sight and wanting it to never end... I don't remember what happened next, whether Anna saw me, whether they scolded me, where my mother was, where my aunt was... All this was erased from my memory because of such a difficult, emotionally intense moment. This is how a fetish was born. (I don't create them for myself.) My fetish never came to fruition, and I was never able to give a girl an enema, but that doesn't stop me from living a full life. Sometimes I remember that moment from childhood. Those painful moans of spasms and the sight of her ass with the hose sticking out are imprinted in my memory. And when I remember it, I sometimes masturbate. My English is bad, so forgive any possible bad translation. In many years of browsing the internet, I still haven't found any similar material where a girl gives a real painful enema and moans from the spasms.That's the story. Thanks in advance.