So, I did it!!
My kit arrived a few days ago but today is the first time I've had enough time to myself to set it up and have a go.. and well, it was a mixed experience ha.
I set it up with warm water, about half full - and used the standard nozzle which came on it. I gloved up, to make it a little more sexual! That instantly made it more medical for me, and I could for sure feel an erection looming. Great news! I'd planned to lay there, enjoy the feeling and masturbate.. but it wasn't to be!
I used some sterile surgical lube (perhaps not necessary, but I have plenty for sounding) - smeared the nozzle and gently inserted it. It felt lovely going in. What then happened was somewhat unexpected!! I turned the nozzle and to begin with it just felt like I needed a poo really badly. Then without warning, the water started coming out as it was going in! It was chaos! So I clenched real hard, but that just hurt! I decided to go with it, and just let some water escape.. within seconds, the bag was empty and I was ready to explode! I removed the nozzle and had the unbearable urge to push! I couldn't help it.. I pushed, gently enough (or so I thought) just to relieve some of the pressure... and boom! I exploded... water, and poo everywhere! The towel did little to no use, the bathroom floor a washy mess of brown water!
Absolute chaos.. I then sat on the loo and pushed out more brown lumpy water!
I think, perhaps I shouldn't have opened the tap the whole way! But the important part.. I enjoyed it. So I'm determined to continue trying and getting better at taking it slowly and being able to hold it with no mess.