Erectile dysfunction fetish

While not directly a part of being a sissy or being feminized, at an early age I got into my ED fetish [erectile dysfunction]. Closely allied to that was an orgasm denial fetish.

Somebody please educate me because I never imagined that ED could ever have anything to do with a fetish. So how does that work?

I actually like - and I am sexually turned on - by the fact that I cannot get an erection. Like many fetishes, this goes way back. Also, like many fetishes, it does not make much sense to those outside the fetish. But I feel more feminine. Tied in with this is my inability to climax and the love of trying but not quite getting there!

When I am in submissive role, I do not get erection, unless directly stimulated. And that lasts pretty much as long as stimulation. I do get very aroused and this 'dysfunction' makes me feel more submissive... I don't know what causes this ED issue. It is limited to play time only. Otherwise, no ED at all, on contrary, touch wood, pun intended, I am still pretty much like 20 y/o, it takes very little to get full erection.