What do you think caused your medical fetish?

Pretty darn easy to figure this one out as it lives on in my mind yet today. I was 12, maybe 13, with puberty late for me. It’s probably the whole exam as it unfolded… as directed by the nurse, chest bared and belt unbuckled before doctor arrived in the room. All I can remember is my nerves as I knew what would be asked of me and (unwillingly) done to me. Nothing at first, checked eyes, ears, nose, throat, heartbeat, and lungs. The stethoscope was cold on my chest. But next… “lie on your back, arms above your head on the table” and the nurse suppressed my arms against the exam table to keep me from interfering, pants undone, lowered, along with my underwear to my knees. I was uncovered from my head to my knees, as the young nurse held my arms down, and the doctor examined my developing penis and testicles in front of the nurse and my mom. It was so humiliating to be exposed and seen in such a position of submission, lying on my back, during a period of my sexual development. I was already masturbating regularly by then so it almost felt like everyone in the exam room knew. But, to have my arms held down by the nurse as I was examined… sent me off the chart. It is no wonder why being examined by someone is without question my favorite role play and fantasy while masturbating. To this day, I play doctor with myself to evoke the same feelings.

@rodjerkerr I can understand that very well. Do you have any idea why that happened? Did you resist before, or were you not obedient enough?

@rectemp I believe it was probably just standard procedure in my pediatrician’s office. If I were to guess, it may have been done to keep a younger child from interfering with this part of the examination. It could have also been done to hold a younger patient in place or to prevent a sudden reaction as the doctor examined such a sensitive area on the patient’s body. That touch might trigger a sudden response, or perhaps the patient might be a bit jumpy as that touch occurred. It was probably also done to provide some reassurance. I’m sure even at 12 or 13, there was a look of panic on my face as I was told to lie back on the table, knowing this part of my body was going to be exposed. The female nurse’s touch, while meant to provide gentle restraint likely also provided a calming and reassuring touch in these moments of emotional discomfort.