When did I know I liked ladies.
Perhaps it should be stated when did I know I preferred ladies. Sorry. You all get me thinking from time to time and some of you know that can be dangerous....
Okay...
My best friend growing up from grades 1-12 was a boy named Jeb. I've spoken about him before.
He was my sexual experiment. He claimed I was the reason he, his words, became gay....
I went deaf at age 16. I wasn't a cool kid. I hung out with the Theatre kids while I was the math and sciences girl.
I was attracted to boys. But who wanted to date a deaf girl who prefer sloppy clothes...and was always studying and doing speech therapy and trying to remember how to speak normally while learning how to read lips and learn ASL.
I good at it. Never really had a date in High School. Except I made Jeb take me to Prom.
In college I got into a bad situation with a graduate assistant. And he thought he was a dominant...he was just mean and cruel.
My roommate got me out of that situation. (I know rambling but like every good novel we need a back story)
I was pretty shook up about this guy and he was still lurking about. I had to see him about everyday because of class load. After one particularly intense day. (He threatened my grades if I didn't come back.) I explained to my roommate about all the shit...
In the middle of my rant she just leaned in close and kissed me. Not just a kiss but something more. There was a hunger behind that kiss. It was overwhelming. It was fierce, seductive, so hot. And someone finally kissed me like I needed to be kissed.
She told me everything would work out but that could wait for tomorrow. That was my first same sex encounter. And it lasted all night and when we woke up be both were laughing because we were a hot sexual mess. We smelled of sex. We looked ravaged. We looked...good together..
She helped me take that asshole down. We stayed together for eight years. We had a somewhat open arrangement and did the group sex thing from time to time. I learned I did enjoy cock but not usually who it was attached to.
So that's why I consider myself 98% lesbian and 2% bi.
All my long term relationships have been with women. My nuclear family understand. My Arkansas relatives just can't quite grab the concept about girls having sex with girls...you know..no dicks...
That's another story...
Faith