Pre-Top Surgery Thoughts

With my top surgery coming closer I am starting to have some small doubts. I'm still sure this is the right decision but I am still a bit worried I'll miss my built-in stressballs

Furthermore, I have never had my tits touched in a sexual context and now I kind of want to before they're gone.

Any other trans masc people experience anything similar? I'm open to thoughts and advice (or just another voice saying it’s okay, honestly)

"Furthermore, I have never had my tits touched in a sexual context and now I kind of want to before they're gone."

Although I am not a genetic girl, I can tell you from experience that you might want your tits touched. For me, a man with man boobs size A to B depending on the bra. 70% of sexual activity is to have my boobs played with, esp. my nipples. That said, it your life and your decisions however, if I was to have my boy parts taken away (which I don't want that to happen ever) I definitely would want to experience someone touching my boy parts first.

I had keyhole top surgery about 8 years ago. I wanted to have my chest touched sexually before the surgery, but never got the opportunity. I had a lot of chest dysphoria, but I was still curious. Now, my chest is permanently numb in some places, and I don’t like it being touched because of the weird sensation. If you don’t have too much dysphoria, I would recommend trying out having your chest touched sexually before surgery just to have that experience while it’s really sensitive. However, I wouldn’t let that hold you back from getting surgery. Top surgery was the best decision I ever made.

All the best as this is a huge decision. Hopefully you have had counseling with a trusted professional as you continue your journey.

You've maybe already had top surgery by now but anyway I can affirm as a fellow transmasc that the desire to have your chest touched sexually beforehand is really normal—losing chest sensation is the one big drawback of top surgery and it makes sense to want to enjoy that part of yourself before! My partner threw a chest play party before their top surgery, which I thought was a great idea. I didn't get the chance to do that myself but I would have loved to.

That said, chest sensation does come back somewhat, very slowly, following surgery. It's not going to be what it was before, especially on the nipples, but you will be able to feel and enjoy touch in that area again, especially after a couple of years. Echoing what others have said here that top surgery was a great decision for me despite the drawbacks. Good luck with yours/with your recovery!

Have you had your surgery? how did it go?