So I just finished with my very first diaper experience. I don’t know why but I have had this huge interest lately in reading your stories about diapering and how it makes you feel. I wanted to see if it was for me. I have been wanting to try dabbling in age play and regression back to a toddler/baby.
I got home from work, grabbed two depends along with some glycerin suppositories, and headed to my bedroom. I took off my panties and leggings, discarding them off the side of the bed. I laid over the side of the bed with a pillow propping up my hips. I opened up the suppository container and took out two of the gleaming white bullets. I bent over, spread my legs, then carefully exposed my anus. I pushed the first suppository in and was not prepared for how it felt. I clamped my legs together as a wave of pleasure washed over me. It was weird lol. Then once my body had relaxed, I inserted another suppository. I pushed myself up front he bed, unfolded one depend at a time, and pulled them up over my bottom. It was an awkward feeling. I didn’t really know what to feel or think at first. I decided I would let things progress naturally, so I went downstairs to occupy myself.
I had severe cramping for the next hour and I managed to continuously hold it in. However; at one point it stopped completely. I was then worried I had messed up my chance! I had no desire to eliminate now. Fuck. I just wanted it to be this big thing! You know, in case I didn’t like it? That way I’d have my one BIG experience story to tell. Well shit, now I fucked up. I was angry at myself for not listening to my body. I took myself upstairs again and pulled out some punishment tools. I lay on my back on the bed with my legs in the air, and paddled my bottom good. This was also a newer feeling because it was hard to feel it through the two diapers. 🤦🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️ I pulled the two diapers inward the best I could to help reveal my sit spots. (Wedgied myself lol) It got the job done and a nice sting to my little bottom and legs.
I passed the two hour mark and everything had halted. I was not making any progress in my diaper elimination. I went down to the kitchen and grabbed a nozzled bottle. I filled it with soap, hot water, and powdered polyurethane glycol. The mixture was a brownish yellow color. I shook it well. I was sure this would be the answer to my problems. I went upstairs to lay on the bed again. I took off my diapers, spread my legs out, and insert the nozzle into my rectum. The mixture felt very strange and the bottle made it go in quite quickly. I pushed the nozzle tip in as far as it would go as not to waste my “makeshift homemade enema”. I could feel my belly expand slightly and the gurgling began again. It wasn’t intense though, just a little bubbly. I put my diapers back on. I leaned over the bed and spanked myself with a leather belt, sporting nice metal holes to remind me that I need to listen to my body and not stop what was happening.
It took awhile for things to continue progressing. I tried to distract myself with getting into a role mindset. I wanted to feel like I was a baby who had been constipated and just needed a good bowel movement. Mommy and Daddy were mad at me due to me fighting them on the suppositories and enema to help me go, which resulted in those two spankings. I set on the floor and looked up around me, creating the sense that the world was much bigger when looking from way down there. I crawled around on my hands and knees to get the feeling of being a babbling baby just going about their business. The diapers were a bit bulky and itchy. I pulled at them a little. My hand was smacked hard, “Don’t mess with the diaper! You need to leave it alone!”. So with a big pouty face I went back to crawling around some more.
Once things got moving again, it was happening a bit fast and I had a moment of regret. I started holding it in again and fighting against the severe cramping. I had to come to the ABDL board to calm myself down and find encouragement to continue. I don’t know why but I was scared. Was I afraid I’d like it and want more? Was I afraid I would hate it and cry? Was I afraid of getting caught? All these things flooded my mind at once. To stop myself from fighting it, I laid on my back again, pulled the diaper inward, and paddled my bottom good once more. It was sore and red. The backs of my little thighs felt like they were on fire.
I coud feel the sensation of unstoppable pressure coming. I got on the floor for the final time and crawled around. I set down looking around to really get stuck in the baby mindset. The pressure became unbearable, I got on my hands and knees to move around and all of sudden it just started flowing out of my bottom. I sat on my knees as I emptied into my diaper. I was kind of stuck in this moment. I didn’t move and wasn’t really able to even think about it. I just sat there as my bottom let loose what I was trying to hold back this whole time. When I had a moment where it ceased, I sat down. I could feel the warm gooey substance surround my bottom and vagina. I popped up and down on it for a moment to get a feel of what it was like. I kind of… enjoyed it! I crawled around a little and everytime I moved more spilled into my diaper. Both urine and feces were expanding my diaper by this point, but I couldn’t help but get a rush from it. I would periodically stop to sit on it and move by bottom over the squishy texture. I put my thumb in my mouth and began sucking on it. I had really gotten sucked into my role. I pulled at my diapers a little when they started to get full. It was a bit heavy and uncomfortable. I eliminated for a good twenty minutes. When I was finally finished I was surprised I wasn’t leaking.
I went to the bathroom and carefully tore the sides of one diaper at a time. The first one was a bit soggy but had just absorbed what spilled from the first. When I carefully removed the second one, it was really heavy but well absorbed. I was embarrassed for a moment as I caught my eye in the mirror. Shameful almost. I used wipes to clean myself off. It took a little while due to the amount I had eliminated. It was not insanely messy though which was good. After I was clean, I washed my hands, got dressed in my normal clothes, and at down to write this excerpt of my experience. I hope you enjoyed it as much as I did!
If you have any comments or questions please feel free to ask. This was a very good experience for me. I want to look more into age play now and explore more about diapering.