Mine was like — ok , I feel. different , I felt more empowered and more self confident .
If anyone had noticed , I would not have cared .
Not a normal reaction for someone who suffers from anxiety ,
I remember they were the old style Attends from back in the middle 80’s with 6 tabs , 3 on each side.
I was amazed at how well they fit and felt .
It was so comforting and offered me a sense of self worth I never thought I could experience .
If I mentioned this to a therapist , they would try to over analyze the whole deal,
It was almost like I could conquer the world .
I went out for a walk and nobody ever gave a second glance .
As the warmth built so did the need to pee !! and of course not an easy thing to do . I tried and remember leaking a little and I decided to head back home . Took my clothes off and went in the shower and just let go !!
I was really surprised how much they held before overflowing .
Tossed them in a plastic bag and finished my shower , totally relaxed and I had not even orgasmed yet !!
That was kind of how I knew diapers would alway be a part of my life ,
Even to this day I do not wear all the time , just on certain days when I have nothing planed and I can retreat back to that safe place called …
Little Space !!
That as , they say , is that !!
Later ,
T.