What to do?

I told this to a person on reddit and this person completely understood, Well if you must know at the age of 7 i development a diaper fetish and i haven't worn diapers in a long time. I've been thinking about wearing diapers at night so i don't have to use the bathroom though here's the kicker. I live with a roommate and im a pca setting (personal care assistant). And i really don't know how to tell my pac person that i want to wear diapers at night. And i have told my roommate about my fetish also he complains and whines about everything, ugh! I really don't like him, he is supposed to move out in june. And if doesn't move out in June then I'm going to move out and i don't know how anyone can tolerate him. After 3yrs of tolerating him im done, that's why he moving out. He has cp which doesn't bother me though it's the things he does that frustrates me, one more month hopefully. Anyway i have never told him about my fetish and that im bisexual and me and him live on social security. Hopefully i get a job in the future im already in the process of getting one, its a very exhausting process. Yeah, i don't know how to tell my pca person that i want to wear diapers at night and she is the one that buys groceries for me and my roommate, im not sure what i should say. Im not sure if i should text her the groceries list next time with adult diapers on the list. I don't know what to do, should i wait until my roommate moves out or what?

I would talk to her, if you just text the list, she may assume you have incontinence rather than it being a choice.

In UK, the default setting in care homes is to avoid wearing pads ( a.k.a. diaper) by encouraging regular visits to the loo.

Probably easier for an incontinent person as myself to discuss. Just be upfront and honest about it.

Well today i talked to my pca provider about me wearing diapers at night so I don't have to use the bathroom, she is going to a portable urinal for me. What do i do?

Start wetting the bed.

Get the potable urinal. I find it easiest to use while lying on my side.

There are also bed urinals that have a sheath to pee into and have a hose that connects to a pee container that sits on the floor, reducing the chance of a spillage.

Well my living situation is different from most people and this why i can't wet the bed. To be honest I have a disability that's not why i like diapers, I'm very high functioning. I live with a roommate that complains and whines about everything and I live in a pca setting (personal care assistant). So i can't really wet the bed.

Even if you lived alone, wetting the bed isn’t a good option. @Sean ’s recommendation seems pretty good.

Isn’t your roommate moving out soon?

Yes, he is moving out soon.

I sent my pca provider this text

Well I did look at portable urinals and something about them makes me feel uncomfortable. And getting up multiple times a night just to use it especially when im a sleep would get exhausting after awhile. I would prefer to use diapers i think they would be easier and i will take care of the mess and everything else. Its just the way i feel and if you have a different opinion , i would like to know. There are many things that do make me uncomfortable that just weird me out and i try to avoid those things. And i have watched the saw movies and other things like that and many things don't phase me though everyone has a limit to certain things. It's not like that i wet the bed or anything like hopefully the next 20yrs, i just want to make my night time bathroom habits easier. Like I said if you have any objections i would like to know.

Her response is let me think about it.

Advice please

Bluray said : I would prefer to use diapers i think they would be easier and i will take care of the mess and everything else.

My suggestion is do what you want as long as you do as what you text her. Don't expect her to do anything related to wearing diapers. Just simply go online and order the diapers you want and wear them.

Don't reject using a urinal until you have tied it. They cost less than 10 UKP.