I may be banned for this one lol.
Okay, full disclosure, anyone who reads my most of my posts knows i'm a total bottom gay male. Culture doesn't always have words to describe us different folk, i'm sure many, if not most, on here can relate in some form.
i'm all guy, i do not identify as a transperson, but i do not perceive myself as having a "cock." To me, a "cock" is much more than an organ betwixt the thighs, it's also a deeply set psychological disposition . Among many other things, Guys with "Cocks" are wired to penetrate, fuck, breed (my list goes on and on lol). i don't have one of those. Sure, i have a penis, but to me it's more like a clitoris than a cock, and my anus is more like a 'pussy' than an anus, definitely more of a receptive organ, and it's been my sex organ since i discovered it at age 7.
i was married to a woman for a long time (religious background that didn't allow for being gay). We were both bottoms with some sub, but i 'played' the top "role.' i learned a lot. i'd stimulate my former wife's clitoris orally, manually, and she'd have multiple orgasms that way... but didn't like that. When she'd get close, or start to orgasm, she'd literally beg me to penetrate and fuck her.
After we divorced, i really came to understand that because i'm wired similarly. i love when a Man touches my penis or stimulates it with the full intent of never making me orgasm that way. Rather, He does it to make me crave His cock... since i don't have one, but want one in me. There's where i'm different from my former wife though because i am happy to not have my own orgasm and have my Tops orgasm inside of me. i have one FB who's bred me a couple of times a week for 4 years and i have never once had an orgasm of my own, but having His orgasm inside of me is what nurtures my own particular need/desire. He sucks my penis, but never to make me come, just to stimulate me, and that reminds me of what i used to do with my wife's clitoris.