Surgery and death

My biggest medical fetish is surgery. I love doing online roleplays as a surgical patient. I also like tragic outcomes. I am quite morbid. Anyone else have this fantasy?

I have had 22 surgeries and I must confess the loss of control leading to anesthesia turns me on.

Yes, that is for sure one of the best parts about surgery. and then imagining them positioning me, i have no control over my body at all.

Do you enjoy the prep?

Yes, that is always a fun part too. loopy on preop meds, my body being prepped for surgery.

Shaving… enema… cath…scrub with Povidone