I have had a 'new' idea and I wish to muse about it for a bit. Hopefully someone will find this of interest as well. Of course this is all fantasy. In practice I know things are quite different.
I've found myself fixated on a new idea of late. I imagine many people probably have the same experience, an idea enters your head and you just can't seem to get it out. So my current fantasy is a bit of a twist on the typical birth into emergency c-section scenario. The twist is simple but the more I explore it, I really think there is something special here too. So, the twist, is its a schedule c-section, probably after having a previous one though the specific logistics are really not that important.
I find that first scenario very frenetic, full of energy and high stakes, lots of drama played on very quickly. This second one, now with the planned element, slows everything down. Draws it out. The immediate, explosive fear and dread of an emergency surgery is replaced with the slow creepy worry of a planned surgery. Of knowing full well what is going to happen. Knowing how vulnerable you will be, how out of control of everything you will be even your most intimate bodily functions and yet knowing you have signed up for this, you agreed weeks ago to it. There's that delicious tension in the patient's mind, all of the dread yet the realization they have done this to themselves. They agreed, not in distress, but in clear rational consciousness. That interplay truly feels very delicious to me. I've been thinking of it more like a slow burn horror movie. The tension ramping up with each step. Each part of the preparation for the day of the operation. The interplay of agency vs object. The patient going willingly to their 'doom' so to speak. This slow confrontation with how out of control they really are and the inevitable acceptance of it by them.
Of course this is all thrown on top of the dynamic of 'giving birth' of bring a life into the world. Of creation in its most human form. The interplay of the dominate and the submissive. Perhaps this is really why I like c-section scenarios so much, there are so many elements here at play that can be pulled and drawn upon to heighten the mood/tone desired. Those are just some of my thoughts, would love to hear more of yours.