Little Space ...

Hi all,

Since last year I found out there is a little boy of 2-2,5 years old inside me that wants to be present more and more. I found a safe place/space for him to come out and most importantly found someone to share this side of me with. This person is not my partner, but my ‘big’ sister in the community, and also a good friend in real life, whitch I’ve met on my first big event in the community in the biginning of 2020.

I was with my big sister a few days ago and realised, as I was switching between being little and being an adult, that I don’t get how it is possible that I feel, look and think lika a 2,5 year old without it being an ‘act’. The feeling inside is geniune. Also sister says my face and expession are different from when I’m big.

Now my question is: Is there anyone in here that recognises these feelings/thoughts or has had the same experiences from being in little space and maybe knows how this works on the psycological side of it all?

I’m asking because it is very overwhelming to me and want to understand how this works (like I want to understand everything in life 😅). it also feels healing to be little, but is so strong that it could maybe be harmfull if I am not careful or responsible enough.

Thanks for reading and hope someone could give me some feedback 🙂.

Love,

Spike (both of them in this case ‘little’ and ‘big’)

I am not sure except that by going into little space you are just realizing the inner child that wants to come out. You are acting in the way you feel a 2.5 year old should act and that is who you really want to be. It is great you are able to find this side of you and a big sister to take care of you.

I am not sure except that by going into little space you are just realizing the inner child that wants to come out. You are acting in the way you feel a 2.5 year old should act and that is who you really want to be. It is great you are able to find this side of you and a big sister to take care of you.

Hi Dukeyoreo,

what you say sounds like a good explanation. So thanks for that 🙂.

And yes, I am blessed with a big sister like her.

Love,

Spike

I've spent my life trying to stop the whole “diaper thing”. Unfortunately it's always there and undeniable. There's no problem for me to separate the little from my adult life. But the little side is just like a toddler annoying me at times. I've learned that life is best when I find time for the little side. That taken care of, life as an adult is what it should be.

These “timeouts” make my life somewhat more stressful, trying to cover up the baby side under the ever seeing eyes of life in an adult world. All this said I realize that I live with something akin to Multiple Personality Syndrome. In toddler time I experience a freedom that doesn't exist in the adult world. A very real experience that could be described as a “trip” by a drug user. Or an out of body experience. The majority of life as an adult always has a certain stress level not present in little space. This doesn't exist in my little world.

Adult life is so much richer and rewarding . Where I'd choose to live my live full time. But I realize now there is a very real facet of me that's a small child still in diapers. With a mindset of a child that age. It's all very strange and sometimes unsettling. Thank god it's no problem to leave little space. Also pretty difficult to let go and enter it. My wife understands all of this and supports me. I can't even begin to tell you why. Other than she loves me deeply and cares about my well being.

I believe the genuine AB has two real personalities existing in their mind. For me life is best to acknowledge the fact and let my little side have time to live too. I wear 24/7 much of the time. It lets both my little and my adult side coexist. Isn't life interesting?

I've spent my life trying to stop the whole “diaper thing”. Unfortunately it's always there and undeniable. There's no problem for me to separate the little from my adult life. But the little side is just like a toddler annoying me at times. …

Dear Metoo,

Thank you for your open and heartwarming answer. It is just great to hear from orhers that, although it might have different facets to it, experience littlenes.

The ’trippy’ part is something that I recognize. That is a good way to explain how it can feel to me.

Love,

Spike

From a psychological point of view im pretty sure its seen as an actual type of headspace which is the almost ‘trippy’ factor for little space as mentioned by others before. You are entering a younger head space and letting go of adult stressors and worries (especially if you use it as a coping mechanism), because of this your brain is actively acknowledging that this is a safe place to regress back.

I myself have been interested in little space as a coping method so have looked into it quite a bit but I struggle immensely to let go like that mentally when I'm normally the one who's helping everyone else around me so I personally haven't fallen into that kind of headspace yet sadly.

Hope this helped! 😊

From a psychological point of view im pretty sure its seen as an actual type of headspace which is the almost ‘trippy’ factor for little space as mentioned by others before. …

Hi Bridg,

Thank you for replying! Every reply helps, so to answer your question; yes! 🙂

I think I use it as a coping method, because it lets me reload my battery so to speak. I normally am also the one that helpes out others and find it hard to be cared for in this way sometimes. the ‘letting go’ mentally is a struggle that I recognize, mostly cause I struggle with enjoying stuff for myself in a agoïstic way. I always want the enjoyment being mutua/from both sides.

Apart from things that you mention and that have similarities, I find it very insightful to read about the ‘acknowledging a safe headspace to regress to’ part. Very helpful!

Love,

Spike

Spike, I know exactly what you are feeling/experiencing/talking about! If you would like to talk contact me, patty10

Spike, I know exactly what you are feeling/experiencing/talking about! If you would like to talk contact me, patty10

Hi Patty,

Thanks for your reply! Nice to read that someone recognizes what I’m writing/saying. Would be great to talk about with someone 🙂.

Spike

Spike,

I'm starting to fall in your same situation. With one big difference my little is 5…lol but trust me I feel the same way.

PS if you ever want to chat hit me up.

Spike,

I'm starting to fall in your same situation. With one big difference my little is 5…lol but trust me I feel the same way.

PS if you ever want to chat hit me up.

Hey DrC,

Thanks for replying! I don’t think the age you regress to is of any importance opposed to the feeling it gives you/me/anyone to go ‘there’, so to speak. Happy to see I am less alone in this then I thought. Thank heavens for zity and all who replied in this thread that recognize the things I wrote.

PS never a problem to DM 🙂

Spike

Hey DrC,

Thanks for replying! I don’t think the age you regress to is of any importance opposed to the feeling it gives you/me/anyone to go ‘there’, so to speak. Happy to see I am less alone in this then I thought. Thank heavens for zity and all who replied in this thread that recognize the things I wrote.

PS never a problem to DM 🙂

Spike

Cool bro…,😁