I was 39. It was my first pelvic exam after I gave birth to my second child. I had booked the follow up for my son for some vaccines at the same time as my exam. My husband came with me to hold my son while I would get my exam done.
My son was sleeping so the nurse suggested we start with me. My plan was to do his shots with the nurse (who was a strict asshole) and send him off with my husband while the doctor examined me.
The nurse told me to undress and put on a gown while she got the doctor.
My son woke up as I laid on my back, and started crying because he was hungry. So i just took him on me to breast feed him.
My doctor did my pap, and bimanual exam. And then I was going to get up, but he said he wasn’t quite done. I didn’t know what he meant.
I just saw him remove his gloves, I didn’t see him put new ones on, so I didn’t expect it.
He asked me to bare down, but I thought he checked visually for hemorroids. But then I felt him go in and I jumped. I also felt excess lubricant running down in between my butt cheeks. He repeated the same checks that he did with the bimanual exam. At the end he just kept the finger in my rectum and had me squeeze it.
I remember my husband’s face, he just stared in between my legs.