This is my first post here, so first of all... hi! I’m a 28 year old male who has been interested in diapers since I was old enough to be out of them. I’ve been in a relationship for about 3 1/2 years, living together for about 3. At the start of our relationship, my girlfriend tried to be my mommy, incorporate diapers and bondage into sex, etc. Ultimately, she decided she was more vanilla than she thought and I found myself diapered maybe once or twice a year when she would go out of town (which is somehow less than I would wear when living at home). She’s not into it, and I don’t want to pressure her and wear diapers or be little around her if she doesn’t like it.
Well, ever since the pandemic started and I got furloughed (since April 1st), my depression, anxiety, and insomnia have gotten really bad. It didn’t help that she started a new job in our field that is basically a dream job. I’m proud of her, obviously, but it doesn’t help my self-esteem while I am not currently working. I got a little lost in diaper porn for about two weeks, watching it every night before bed (masturbating sometimes helps me get to sleep and like I said before, I’ve had a lot of trouble). But it didn’t compare to actually wearing because it is as much emotional for me as it is sexual, perhaps more so. I tried messing with a text to speech app, typing it diaper related phrases, trying to not be so bored with the same videos I had seen over and over.
Here’s where I made my mistake.
I copied one of the phrases so I wouldn’t have to retype it while messing with settings. Well, my girlfriend and I were talking and I went to send her a funny photo. Instead of sending the photo, I pasted the message and immediately hit send.
She was taken aback and I explained what I had been feeling and how I wanted to be little, but felt like I couldn’t. She looked at me and said “I don’t care if you want to wear diapers, do whatever makes you happy idiot!” Don’t worry, she was being playful. She went on to tell me if I wanted to wear diapers, a onesie, use a pacifier, it literally doesn’t matter as long as it makes me happy.
So I bit the bullet and asked if she would be okay with me wearing 24/7 because when else would I get such an opportunity with having nowhere to go right now? I was a little surprised when she told me that even if everything was normal, she would support me wearing 24/7. She just doesn’t want me to mess around her or for her to change me. Which sucks, because I love her, she’s great at diaper changes, and obviously I would like her to change me, but I completely understand. She did say she might diaper me after I shower though, which I think is more than fair.
So now, I’ve emptied my underwear drawer and am wearing 24/7! I’ve only used the potty once since starting when I had to mess, but I’ve used my diapers for everything since then (away from her so it doesn’t bother her and I change immediately). I’m using generic drugstore diapers at the moment since they’re cheap and readily available with Bellissimos or my thick cloth diaper at night. I have more, better diapers coming in the mail soon though! I also installed a baby log app and am keeping track of all of my diaper changes, bottles, meals, bathings, etc. I didn’t expect this, but using a log app has REALLY made me feel little, especially scrolling through and looking at the pictures you can add for each diaper change, feeding, etc. so I’m basically making a journal of my 24/7 experience.
And the best part is that my mood has done a complete 180. The first night I slept for 8 hours straight which I haven’t done in a very long time. I’m happier, more productive, and even more hygienic. And I also feel the burden of hiding my little side has lifted. The downside is that had we had this conversation 2 1/2 years ago, I could have spent more time diapered and little. Oh well, lesson learned that communication is important, even if the topic is a little embarrassing. I don’t know how long I’ll stay diapered, I think until at least 4th of July weekend when we visit her parents (not worth that risk), but I’m definitely going to use this time to my advantage!
TL; DR: Haven’t gotten to wear diapers in a long time, thanks to an errant text my girlfriend knows how repressed I felt, so now I’m diapered 24/7 for as long as I want!