I have a life-long overactive bladder. I think it was the trigger to my pants wetting fetish at 3 yo. I find out the diaper fetish late, at 28 yo, and became a DL right after trying the first diaper. I started wearing a lot, everywhere, but I would go for weeks without wearing. Sometimes diapers wasn't practical. But I was addicted about diapers and about the idea of becoming a bedwetter, untraining my bladder and becoming diaper dependent. I tried for years, without success. I was frustrated and I decided to give up, I accepted I would never become a bedwetter. After this decision, I was happy. I couldn't be a real bedwetter, but I could be a deliberately bedwetter if I wanted. All I had to do was wearing a diaper for sleep and use it at bed if I had a urge to pee.
Two years ago my overactive bladder became terrible worse. I lost the ability to hold my pee after about 2 minutes from the slightest sign of urge. Two major accidents in public and I made an appointment to an urologist. I had no idea of what happened, but after telling the doctor that I always had OAB, he immediately asked if I had Covid. What? Yes… There are many reported cases of people with OAB loosing the bladder control as a sequel of Covid. So he tried medicines and the 3rd worked for me. I can say I'm lucky, because for some people no medicine allows to control bladder spams.
I made the choice of not taking the medicine and wear diapers as a solution to my incontinence few months later. Myrbetric, the medicine, makes my bladder too strong and when I try to wet between the intervals of 4~6 hours, I can't succeed. I was frustrated because the medicine made me loose the ability of wetting myself on purpose. It's an addiction, but it only makes me happy. So I decided to embrace my love of wetting and wearing diapers. It wasn't difficult at all, because I already was a DL, I've already experienced going 24/7 for almost a year when I followed the 12 Month Diaper Training Programa and I could take Myrbetric when I find that diapers aren't the practical choice, like when traveling.
In the past two years I've learned to overcome the fear of wearing in different situations, learned that there's some social stigma, but in general people are very understanding, some people will give support but some will go away. Nothing was so surprising and I wasn't bothered of having to wear diapers the rest of my life. I enjoy the humiliation and embarrassment when I have to affirm I'm incontinent to strangers. It's a new pleasure for me!
I'm sure that I did the right decision, because I couldn't be happier in my life. I didn't realized until living the dream that being in wet diapers all day long wetting constantly was all I ever wanted. I've read in many places people warning “be careful with what you want, because once you loose your bladder control maybe you can't have it back" and I became afraid of having bladder issues. But it isn't that terrible. In fact, I found comfort and a sense of freedom, never having to look for a toilet anymore. There are few times diapers are inconvenient, actually having to wear them is more convenient than not.
I hope to be in diapers for the rest of my life!