“Abused” as a young boy by an older female. Seeking the female perspective.

I hope I have posted this topic in the correct category.

I have posted on this site and discussed with other males about my experiences as a young boy with an older female.

You can read my posts here, but essentially, I would not say I was abused, hence the subject of “abuse” in inverted commas.

I played “Dr’s & Nurses” as a young boy, always the played the patient. The “nurse” was an older girl of 12 when I was aged about 6. Playing with my penis, foreskin retraction, etc was always part of the procedure. One day, she forced back my foreskin tearing some of the inner foreskin away from the glans.

These experiences have dogged me for the last fifty years. I don’t feel I have been scarred in any way, although it has left a deep impact on me.

I have always wanted to talk to the girl who did these things to me, she would be in her sixties now. I want to know what went on in her mind, did she enjoy doing these things to me, for instance. Was it curiosity on her part, was it her just being naturally dominant and me being submissive?

I would like to discuss with a female who may have done similar things before.

I understand the delicate nature of this subject, and if any female would like to remain anonymous, that is fine. All I want to do is to try and understand what the thinking is behind her actions.

Needless to say, I ventured into these “Dr & Nurse” games on my own accord.

I would love to hear comments from any female.

Thank you.

I have always wanted to talk to the girl who did these things to me, she would be in her sixties now. I want to know what went on in her mind, did she enjoy doing these things to me, for instance. Was it curiosity on her part, was it her just being naturally dominant and me being submissive?

Going off topic but what you wrote has me thinking ... I too think about the girls I've played with when I was very young... games of I'll show you mine, if you show me.. There was one whom I've mentioned in a thread someplace who like to rough-house with me and would always try to get me to talk about enemas. I was still in the phase of disliking enemas, and just when we were getting close, her family moved far away.. I wonder if any think of me... wonder how their lives turned out...

Try to reach out to the old friends. I wouldn’t start off with questions but just try to reconnect. I’ve tried many times to find my childhood friends with no luck, hopefully your luck is better than mine.

@ThongNaturist I have often thought how this girl seem to disappear off the map, so to speak. The last time I ever saw her would be when I was about 8 or 9. My memory is sketchy as it is fifty years ago. A few years after that, we moved home and all contact with her ceased. I presume this is who you are referring to?

I would like to discuss with any female about her thoughts if she, in the past, did similar things. The chance of discussing with my “abuser”, I think, would be very slim, indeed of she is still alive, who knows. It would be incredible if she was to contact me through another channel to see if I remember anything of my childhood with her. Who knows, she may even be lurking on sites like this?

It’s entirely possible she could be on a site like this who knows. Also try looking her up on social media by middle name or other names she used or look for her parents on social media . I know some people will use a different name on social media if they are in certain professions so they can’t easily be found by people they don’t want to find them.