How to Accept a Diaper Fetish

I am an older single man and have always had a thing for underwear. Recently I have had an interest in introducing diapers into my interest in underwear. I am not into scat and have had several water sports encounters but it is not a driving urge. i would like to explore diapers but i am not sure what I should expect to happen when I wear them or even how to get myself to accept having them on either around the house or maybe someday outside. I have bought several packages so at least I know I am interested enough to buy them. I am interested in how folks got started and if there is a particular reason why you started wearing them as an adult.

. I am interested in how folks got started and if there is a particular reason why you started wearing them as an adult.

i don't think this has a simple or generic answer (not that you are looking for either).

i've been approached by a few guys who wanted to diaper me. And that's a crucial element for me, most of my kinks grow out of my submissive nature. i cannot imagine diapering myself. i can imagine the feelings of embarrassment, humiliation, loss of control/power, but only in association with someone else getting me to wear diapers. And i qualify, "getting me to wear." i know a lot of people in a D/s dynamic connect through force, being made to do something. For me the Guy who exercises the most control with me is the one who finds my 'buttons' and knows how to push them.

Here's a scenario i can imagine. A Man i really like comes home one day with a bag and says with a big smile on His face: "I got something special for you." Immediately He has latched onto me on several emotional levels. First, HIs smile. i love when a Man is happy, especially in relation to me. Secondly, He's been thinking of me and got something "special" in connection to His thinking of me. When He takes the diapers out of the bag, i might gulp, i'd be embarrassed, but also sexually aroused by His smile and His power to embarrass me by discovering/exposing that i am sexually aroused by His pleasure over embarrassing me. idk, i still don't have the whole affectionate humiliation/embarrassment thing figured out, but it is a powerful collar with me.

If He took one out of the bag and said: "I can't wait to see you in them," He'd be attaching a leash to that psychological collar He found, and tugging it. He isn't really asking, but He is not forcing either, He is just showing His pleasure at wanting to see me in the "special" diaper that He got with me in mind. I'd be drawn further, especially if He went to put it on me, and without missing a beat, started to undo and remove my pants and underwear as though it were the most natural thing in the world. And, at that point, it would be because i would be aroused and He'd see that.

Once He had me in it, He could go all sorts of places with it... He'd have collared and leashed me by discovering an inner place to attach it and He'd know He had latched on to my desire/need to please and my sexual arousal at the thought of doing so, despite my embarrassment and humiliation, which would also mysteriously add to me arousal.

i'd never just start wearing a diaper though, it would be an act of aroused, humiliated, submission for me.

I'm also an older man (74). I had a bed wetting incident on a new mattress. Fortunately I woke up before I had peed too much and caused any damage/staining. I decided that night I would always wear diapers to bed so as not to cause damage/staining if it happened again. Shortly after that, I had a delayed (small) anal discharge resulting from an enema session earlier in the day that I thought had been fully expelled. Anyway, since I have a major pee fetish, it seemed only natural to start wearing 24/7. I love wearing diapers. I love fondling myself thru the thick padding of diapers. The best part is I now pee in them whenever I want and enjoy my pee fetish all day, every day, to one degree or another. In my case, it took no adjustment at all to wear diapers. BTW, they really are comfortable if you find the right ones for you. I order mine on-line as nothing in the brick and mortar stores are to my liking.

My experiences with discovering at a very early age that I loved diapers, wetting myself, my fascination with females doing it and all related things are documented in all my other posts here, no need to repeat all of those stories. So let's just say I've been into this as far back as I can remember.

That being said, I didn't make peace with it and accept it until I was in my late 20's. After years of living through the guilt, doing the "binge and purge" thing, buying baby clothes only to feel guilty and get rid of them then two months later go out and buy everything again--I finally accepted that I love this, I'm never going to quit doing it, even if I wanted to it wouldn't work, and I finally made peace with it.

This required me to also accept that I'd probably never find a long-lasting relationship nor get married because I wasn't going to give up my diapers and wasn't going to be dishonest about it, either. It was only after that, that I finally DID meet someone, I told her about this early on in the relationship, she accepted it, and I'm still with her today.

But, bottom line, how we got into this and accepting it are two different things.