Childhood Experiences.

I did not really have anything happen when I was a child done to me sexualy but I will say I loved going to the doctor when they would look at my penis and testicles. Since I discovered I liked putting things in my butt very young I feel that that contributed to my kinkyness. It was not till my early teens when I discovered med fet porn that I really got into it and then it contributed to my deep desires.

I was exposed after my modesty feelings developed (about age 9) A baby sitter spanked me naked twice (she was fired) I was examined naked by pediatrician who found a scrotal varicocele; she had my mother, who is MD examine me every 6 months, after a shower; Mom examined me for 5 years. Age 14 I had a hernia operation. I was bathed & shaved night before surgery by female nurse. Many of these experiences being naked resulted in arousal. Not a surprise I'm into CFNM--clothed female naked male. My favorite fantasies are medical and spanking.

Age 17, visiting my aunt,I was hit by a scooter, suffering hand injuries, concussion: both hands were heavily bandaged, and elevated by tying wrists to bed rails. I needed help with excretory functions. Instead of a diaper or catheter the nurses applied a condom catheter, glued to my penis. IAfter being discharged my hands were still bandaged for 2 weeks. I had to wear the condom catheter & a leg bag. My aunt & cousin who was a CNA cared for me. I've had a lifelong fetish for condom catheters and still use them.

I don't remember why I started being attracted to women's clothes. I frequently visited my widowed grandmother. One of my aunts would stay with G'ma often and left a wardrobe of clothes. I tried on her clothes, and was fascinated by her bras, garter belts. One day I was caught by G'ma. I was embarrassed terribly. But she thought it was 'cute' and let me wear my aunt's clothes, and even some of hers around the house. Enabled me for several years. My mother used my room as an overflow for her clothes ,keeping a dresser full of old clothes. These were a ready source for my developing cross dressing habit.

I did not really have anything happen when I was a child done to me sexualy but I will say I loved going to the doctor when they would look at my penis and testicles. Since I discovered I liked putting things in my butt very young I feel that that contributed to my kinkyness. It was not till my early teens when I discovered med fet porn that I really got into it and then it contributed to my deep desires.

So you just were doomed.

I would list the following things:

1. The one and only forced suppository insertion I had when I was 3-4 years old. This experience gave me the kink I have with butts and butt intrusion (suppositories and enemas)

I also think it made my anus sore and tight in a way. I cant stand a penis in my butt. Too painful.

2. This same experience ocurred because I was constipated. Being asked to take a dump before the suppository made me feel desperate and humiliated. Now I fantasize about asking the same thing to another man. Or me being forced to poop by a man or a women (but not any man or woman, only some people give me these feelings/needs)

3. My father was very handsome and he was a sweet partner and company until I was 5 years old. I liked feeling his body close to mine, his hugs, playing over his body. I remember he had this golden chain necklace with a small pendant of the virgin mary and baby jesus and I loved to play with it. There wasnt any sexual feelings in this and I felt so safe with him and I think this is why I love men.

He also had no problems with being naked in front of me at that age. I remember that his penis caused me curiosity, because his foreskin didnt cover the whole glans and mine did. The other thing about him that fixated my sexual preferences was that he had a very hairy ass, wich is something I love in men.

Sometimes I crave for this kind of ideal relationship with another man.

4. I dont know why but my father always made number 2 with the bathroom door open and he would laugh and he appearead mischivous when we, my sister and I, would found him by surprise taking a dump. Now I like watching or hearing men take a dump. Hearing them pushing and moaning and farting, etc. I dont like poop but I like the act of taking a shit.

5. The second and last public suppository insertion. It was made by a big woman (aunt) in front of my cousins.

I fantasize with big women giving me suppositories, although Im gay. I also think this experience has made me find male submission very erotic.

6. My mother would retract my foreskin to clean it with cotton and hot water wich was not painful, but produced a very uncomfortable sensation in my penis, it felt like sandpaper over your glans. I dont know if thats why I got phimosis or she made this to try to cure my phimosis. Now Im circumcised but my penis has always been very insensitive to the point I dont really enjoy blowjobs or penetrate another man.

I dont think there was any intention to cause pain or make me suffer in this actions. I think they thought they were doing what they believed was right. If they made a mistake by doing those things I think it was just ignorance. They were very caring and protective parents.

Bare bottom spankings 100%.

One word: Enemas

Being regularly hand-spanked by my father on my bare bottom up to the age of 8, with one last one at 10, which for the first time ever I had to wait for, not knowing whether or not it was going to happen... the anticipation was intensely squirmy.

Seeing my first primary school Headmaster carrying his cane around with him everywhere, and wondering what it would feel like to have my bottom caned, and how it would compare to my Dad's spankings (which I hated). Sadly(?) he retired when I was just 7 years old, so I never got to find out.

It was spending time in the hospital when I had my tonsils removed during the mid 70s

Bare bottom spankings from my mom and the way I was exposed naked or bottomles not just during and after the spanking itself, but also in other different situations like on the (textile) beach during our summer vacations (when I was let naked till around 10 years old)...

All this things made me sensitive on all this kinks like spankings, CFNM, CMNM, SPH but also for some medical stuf...

Everything butt! Bare bottom spankings, rectal temps, suppositories, and of coarse enemas!

When I was very young maybe 3 or 4 being given an enema was my very first vivid memory I have in my life. I vividly remember being on the bathroom floor on a towel. My parents were changing me I figured because this is what they always did that it was the same. I was wrong. My dad with no warning split my little legs apart and I felt him stick something deep in my butthole. I remember it felt really strange. It did not hurt but felt odd. I did what any young child would do in this situation. Cry and scream bloody murder. I remember as my parents had the enema in my butt I wiggled around on the floor. I moved around trying to get what was in my butthole out of me. As I wiggled around I vividly remember It felt like I had a tickle inside of my butt as I moved around. At this age I was mainly terrified of this and really did not know how to respond to it but my default was to cry harder. I think I was wired to butt play right away then so early in my life....

@ Simba

6. My mother would retract my foreskin to clean it with cotton and hot water wich was not painful, but produced a very uncomfortable sensation in my penis, it felt like sandpaper over your glans.

That's almost exactly what happened to me. My mother would use a soaped washcloth to clean my glans, followed by washing the soap off using the same washcloth, followed by drying my penis with a common towel. This procedure was done twice a day until I was about six years old (then I was supposed to do it myself, which I typically didn't do).

Although my foreskin was fuly retractable back then, I would consider it having been rather tight, and it always came with a certain effort to fully free my glans. However, I am sure that my mum was not aware about that tightness, hence this was not her motivation to fullfill this repeating very uncomfortable procedure.

Btw, my foreskin became much looser through stretching it myself during puberty (fearing circumcision which was once suggested in the age of 13 by a young female doctor).

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I posted some of this in the "spanking" section, because it was THE primary fetish building block in my life, forming sexual responses and pleasures even before puberty, during and then after into adult hood. Spanking, getting a good bare bottom over the knee spanking for me was heart pounding excitement, and then later examining, as best I could that perfect angry red glow on my "Naughty Posterior" as it was termed to me, ignited the excitement all over again. Even the embarrassment of know that I was up and over, no pants, no briefs, totally exposed, and then slapped at length, was something I carried with me from spanking to spanking. When they ended, I missed them and began drawing spankings to recreate my experiences in my mind. I still make spanking art and I realize, that most of the time it's still about me.