I remember I was almost 6 years old and my little brother Andrew, was 2 and still in diapers. Mommy was going to have another baby, the year was 1997. Mommy knew it was time to start potty training Andrew. I had often wondered what wearing diapers were like so I went to Andrew's room and started putting one of his Luvs on. As I started to do the tape up on the left side mommy was bringing Andrew in for a diaper
"Steve why are you putting one of Andrew's diapers on?" she said. I was busted I could not lie.
"I just wanted to see what they felt like, Mommy I forgot how they felt."
"Steve that is wasteful unless you use it, so now lets get it on you right and I want you to use it."
Mommy had read a lot about how if she spanked me for doing something like this it could make me want to do it more. So she told me I should wear the diaper and use it like a baby. "Ok Mommy", I said as I went to her, she put me on the changing table, and applied the tape in the right way.
"Now Steve, you may wear diapers at home again because you want to remember what it is like to be a baby, but in public you have to wear underwear and use the potty like a big boy. Do you understand"
"Yes Mommy"
"Here at home I will diaper and treat you like a baby for as long as you want. If you want to eat baby food, it's baby food. If you want to drink formula or have a little bit of mommy's breastmilk after the baby is born that is ok too, but remember only at home." She than took me off the changing table and said "When you want to be a big boy again let Mommy know and we'll put you back in underwear, ok?"
I was so happy, the diaper felt great. "Ok, mommy" I said and went to play lego's I had the best of both worlds. Mommy knew I was big enough to play with legos and not put them in my mouth, yet she knew my need to be a baby in some ways also. As I was playing with my legos I felt the need to poop not really knowing if Mommy would get mad, I wanted to make sure she really meant I could be a baby I asked "Mommy I have to poop can I poop my diaper?"
"Steve, if you want to act like a baby here at home going on honey mommy will change you when your done". So I started getting red in the face gave a push as I did my diaper started to fill with poop and as always I started to pee at the same time. Mommy saw and of coarse did smell when I was done "Steve, let's get your poopy changed" she said, as she was changing me she asked "Did you like pooping your diaper?"
"yes, Mommy it was warm when I peed too"
"Do you still want to be a baby"
"Yes Mommy".
As soon as I was clean and she was putting a new diaper on me she said "Steve, I am making Andrew a bottle of formula, would you like one too?" All I could think was my Mommy is going to get me a bottle now too as promised.
"Yes Mommy I want one". Mommy had me go to the front room and came a little later with a formula bottle for both Andrew and I. I had forgotten the taste formula had and first did not like it but as I continued sucking on the nipple of the bottle that sweat taste started to hit my taste buds, I was in love again with diapers and formula bottles, I could harldly wait until the new baby came so I could try nursing again. My dream came true, on June 8th 1997 my baby sister Suzanne Fay was born.
When Mommy and Daddy brought her home I knew the time to taste breastmilk again would come, and it did. Mommy told me that I could only nurse after Suzanne had her fill because it was mainly for her growth. I was fine with this and Suzanne much of Mommy's milk for over a year, I had over 3 years of wearing and peeing, pooping diapers, drinking from bottles and from my mommy's breast. The breast because after Suzanne, mommy had one more baby, Robert. In 2001 I came to Mommy and said "Mommy, I really don't want to but I think it is time to be a big boy again".
Mommy said "Are you sure?" I said yes to her. The next day I returned to big boy underwear at home.
I look back on those days and thank my Mommy for not spanking me. It took time but I do believe I would have been totally messed up in the head if she would not have lovingly let me return to my babyhood.
I still play as an adult baby with my wife at times but not everyday.