Aroused and Scared at the same time?

Hi everyone, I wanted tho share my thoughts with you hoping to find someone like me.

I've always, ALWAYS had a mouth fetish, I looked at dental videos, gags ect... But I actually have a huge fear of going to the dentist! I don't know why, but it makes me horny to be restrained at the dentist and at the same time I'm scared just to take a look at my own teeth...

Another example?

Ok.

I am emetophobic. Puke or the idea of puking causes me panic attacks.

I get horny watching porns about girls forced to gag on things and sometimes to puke.

I wish my mouth was forced open and I had a long throat exam, I love the idea of having medical tools in my mouth and throat, the idea of discomfort and more than one person to look inside my mouth, even against my will. To hold my eyes open so they can see me as I gag.

But I seriously have a huge phobia of vomiting.

So

I mean

Wtf brain, you're a weirdo.

Someone else who's more or less like me? Can you share your experience?

The mere mention of an upcoming physical examination used to fill me with overwhelming trepidation and consternation. My nervous anticipation of the doctor's course of action induced tremors.

However, I always felt compelled to touch myself when I contemplated the events of my exam. It was the fear of uncertainty coupled with a lack of control that made the experience so arousing.

I was forced to submit completely to the doctor's will. Nothing was done of my own volition. I was at the doctor's behest with no foreknowledge of subsequent poking and prodding. It was this aspect that made the physical exam both frightening and arousing.