As a diaper lover were you envious of babies and toddlers during your childhood?

I remember that when I was a child, I always felt envious whenever I saw a baby or a toddler, both because they got to wear diapers, and because they were in their simple state of mind completely outside of the complexities of human society, and only caring about their basic biological needs.

For example I remember being a 1st grade pupil in primary school. One day I had a hard Math test, and needed a read a long passage from a story in Hungarian class. After school, while my Mom escorted me home, I saw a toddler girl wearing diapers being walked home by her grandpa. I wished I could be her, or at least simply could be at her stage of life, rather than being a schoolboy who is potty trained.

I remember purposefully wetting my pants between the ages of 7 and 10 sometimes, and trying to "destroy my mind" with purely psychological means so I could be like a toddler again. I thought back then that if I somehow "overload" my mind enough, it would eventually shut off, and regress to a toddler-like state, like in "Dimwit Dexter" an episode of the cartoon "Dexter's Laboratory" which aired around that time.

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Have you ever had similar experiences in your life? That you wished to regress to toddler- or babyhood in your current years, or even earlier, in your childhood?

Again Yes, mostly because I was out of diapers and they weren't I would go home and make fake diapers out of anything like tissues or white cotton vests or anything to hand this was because it would drive me crazy.

It was like an itch I couldn't get any satifaction from every time I saw a child or baby in diapers even my own cousins or relatives I had to keep it inside my mind this happened all through my adolescent years and well into my adult years.

I now wear diapers again although this time it's not through my own choices as I have a intimittent problem with my bladder and should I ever get a place of my own or win the lottery I would get a room decked out in a adult sized baby nursary and hire a carer to look after my needs.

you see I am disabled and the thought of getting older and needing diapers means I have to think about my future say in 30-40 yrs from now when I am less mobile and I think I should go back to wearing diapers 24/7 when I get so old because I know my problems won't go away and if anything will get worse.

So yes I am envious of babies and toddlers as they have a way simpler life but this dosen't make me a perv or something worse as I can and do keep these thoughts locked away in my brain and I don't hint at anything un towards.

If anything I am just your average male in his late 30's who is about to turn 40 in 2 yrs time and who enjoys life and who has overcome insomountable odds to survive in a world that isn't kind to those who are born Autistic or different.

Yours sincerly

Chinababy888.

Of course I was envious, and curious too. I so wanted to be back in diapers, but I was so scared of, being laughed at too. It was shameful, for an older child, (over 3 let’s say) to still be wetting themselves! This was a common tactic used by parents, to get kids motivate to potty train. I always was very self conscious too, about being around other kids, still in diapers. I was interested in this, but boys especially, had no business being interested in, tending to baby needs, like diapers, and diaper changing. The exceptions being, if you were an older sibling, and Mom expected you to help out with that (not my case), or if you were much older, and willing to babysit. Again, boys did babysit, but it was more commonly a girls job. If a boy wanted to babysit, people would then ask, why does he want to do that??? Shouldn’t he, be mowing lawns or something?

Yes, always, of my five younger siblings when told I must grow out of my nighttime diapers at age three. Thus my lifetime fetish began.

I was envious of the only diapered toddler I knew, the half sister of my best friend that lived next door. Since this was in the fifties and I was the youngest and all my cousins were my age or older I just had a pee fetish and wanted to pee my bed and pants. There were no diaper commercials on TV so my interest was in baby stuff in catalogs and magazines. So most of my envy was the kids I knew that still wet their beds and pants, I considered them lucky.

I was jealous of toddlers that were in Pampers. I was always in cloth and plastic pants. We had a few neighbors with kids in disposables. I remember mom visiting a friend out of town and she took us with her. One of their kids was the same age and went to school with my brother so they took off to play. That left me with their youngest so I humored him and played. In his room there was a box of Pampers by his bed and he proudly declared that they were for him. I was being put in cloth at night and some other occasions, but secretly wished for those Pampers!

I was about 9 years old and I remember being overwhelmed with jealousy when I saw a 3 or 4 year old boy being dragged through a department store at the end of a set of reins by his mother. What made this toddler so remarkable was the incredibly thick cloth nappy he was wearing with frosted plastic pants puffed out over the top. His little pale green shorts could barely cover the massive nappy. The elastic waistband was 2 inches below the top of the nappy and as the elastic dug into the soft cloth beneath, what was on show above the waistband was forced to puff out even more. The legs of the shorts didn't even come down far enough to hide the sides of the nappy, so the white plastic covered bottom and crotch were fully visible.

His mother was chastising him for some transgression as the two of them went past. His nappy was so thick that his legs were splayed wide apart and he was waddling from side to side as he walked. When his mother grew tired of his slow pace, she grabbed his hand and raised him half off the ground so he had to paddle his feet trying to get his toes to reach the floor.

I was transfixed by the pair of them and I secretly followed them through the department store to see as much of him as I could. When they exited towards the car park I had to return to my where my parents were. From that moment on, I wanted to be that little boy.

My diaper desires started when I was 5, and even though I had no access to them, I was diaper obsessed. Somehow my developing young mind made a connection that people in wheelchairs get to wear diapers. I made my diaper-to-wheelchair association thanks to a playmate that was confined to a wheelchair. Her mom used to wheel her up by us by the sandbox while we played with Tonka trucks or made castles. I loved sitting on the ground in front of her, where I could stare up the leg of her shorts and have a clear view of her diapers. Seeing that soft crinkly plastic white bulk between her legs would bring me to a dream state that was intoxicating with excitement and envy of her getting to wear diapers. My vivid imagination let me live vicariously through her, giving me images to hold in my mind for when I would be laying in bed at night. My mind would wander in my extreme diaper desires. I developed fantasies where I'm confined to a medical setting under the care of loving nurses. Any time I was at a friends house with a younger sibling in diapers it made me envious as well.

Dreams for sure. A previous significant other takes care of me while in forever diapered. But we can turn off the diaper charm and act our age when we need to.