Caned over the knee with nursery cane leads to embrassing accidents

Hi not sure where to write this but here goes i am sometimes caned bare bottom OTK with short thin cane nursery cane .it is very child like and embrassing as i kick wriggle Squirm and clench and try to resit this form of disipline my sit spots get a lot of attention and it is a sound beating i do sometimes bawl loudly! but i sometimes get it really hard and fast as i sometimes ejaculate on my spankers lap due to all my squirming and moving! do not think it is fair to get harder disipline for ejaculating as i can not help it!

i relise there is a probally a number of disipline issues here re control ect? interested in what others think or how would you deal with someone like me?