Looking at youself in diapers!

Never worn diapers myself (since I was little) but love the look of them on others (girls).

I wanted to be a baby when I chose to wear diapers and that's what a big baby looks like to me. Adding pretty rhumba panties only makes the look even better. Having an AB/DL Mommy would make thing purrrrrrrfect.

I dont like seeing miself as an adult with a diaper on it makes me feel absurd-however I do like looking down to see mi private area covered in a babi diaper or babiish plastic pants because then I dont see anithing adult about that area

I love to look in the mirror when wearing a diaper and nursery print plastic panties. Like Willard13, I am hairy also. I have my body completely shaved off, for lots of reasons, but one is so I look more like a baby. It also helps with hygiene. If I had a t-shirt and boxer shorts on, you would be able to see every hair on me. I shave every day in the shower. I love the smooth feeling of being shaved and looking like a baby. :😃

A lot of times I look at myself in the mirror when I'm going out and I want to see if my bulky diapers show from under my my jeans. Oter times I look at myself while wearind my long john uderwear to remember how I looked as a toddler. Then I just like looking at myself in just my cloth diapers and plastic panties

I love seeing a diaper on me as it serves as a re-enforcement to the fact that I am the adult in diapers, wet or dry, looks good either way. I like the way it looks when I can see the whole diaper on my but. The way others would see me. Also I like to lift my leg and see the darkened area of a dirty diaper, the spot right between my legs where the mess winds up. This reminds me of what a mommy may do to confirm that the baby has indeed made a mess. In a wet diaper I turn around to see how far up the back of my diaper the wetness has traveled, I love seeing the contrast between white-dry diaper and the yellow tint of a wet diaper. Further more I like to see me in wet diapers because it makes me realize that I am truly a baby, "Well look at you standing there in a wet dirty diaper."

My list of diaper tun-ons includes the "Look" of a diaper so it follows that looking at my diaper is a must. I use video tape , pictures and mirror. My most favorite tape was of me getting a diaper changed by my GF. that was really cool to watch.

When I am naked my body in the mirror is not very interesting for me. But diapered I really find attracted my myself.

So, yes I find myself sexy when diapered.

I would have to say that looking in the mirror is kind of a double edged sword. On one hand it does look cute, on the other hand there are times when I think it is rediculous looking.

I would have to agree that I too can see, how someone who doesn't wear would find it offensive, disgusting, unappealing, or

any of the gamet of words used to describe others feelings towards us.

Thank you for your thought provoking and honest letter. I have had many contradictory urges and resistances.

Usually the urge wins. But then I will ask myself "Why"

There's just this need, this itch that needs to be scratched.

I've been pee diapering myself enough so that it no longer feels as extreme as it used to. So now that I'm more comfortable I want to up the ante. This afternoon I was going to go to the lumberyard that I always go to, where I know everyone, in a diaper. It didn't work out because other things came up, but I was all ready to go. I don't want to get caught, but I sure seem to want to skate on thin ice.

Sometimes, when I "know" that no one will be home I have pushed a banana up my ass, held it in for a while,and then when I couldn't stop it, shit it out into a diaper.

How would I have explained that to my wife or son if they had unexpectedly come home? I have no idea. After I'm done, and I've jerked off all desire to do that is gone. But it seems to come back.

I just re read your ealier posting. Two words jumped out at me

helpless, and imprisonment. Those two feelings are definately important ones for me. Bondage has always been an important part of my erotic universe. The emotional environment for me is always one of firm, loving nurture. This fits like a glove with diapering.

My interest in diapering just got started the last number of years. Before that it just wasn't there. Sometimes when I would go into a bondage session I would notice a big package of diapers in a corner, with only passing interest.

Interestingly, my interest in having bondage sessions has waned as my activity with diapers has increased. Diapers are convenient, inexpensive, "sessions" can last a long time - can a case be made for a need for weird sexual expression whatever the form?

I don't think everyone has this need, but it's interesting how S/M has become almost mainstream lately where it used to be totally unmentionable.

I used to love to choke myself - the buzz I would get was great. I couldn't look at a belt or rope without imagining myself tightening it around my neck. Then I read how that was really dangerous because of possible damage to the carotid arteries and the stroke like effect of denial of oxygen to the brain (which of course was the name of the game). Well, I stopped, although I miss it.