Spanking Crush

I am a 64 yr. old married Male top.I asked a young Lady at a spanking party to play and she accepted, we had a great scene.I spanked her hard and long with some rubbing and some pussy spanking.she was actually dripping wet.She is 34 yrs. younger than I.No real sex.My wife was out of town,so could not be there,I told her all about when she returned.I am not looking for romance my wife and I are very happy.But I can not get this girl out of my Head,I feel like some kid,I have seen her twice since then,she has done nothing to encourage me,she has met my wife I talked to her about having my wife watch me spank her ,she was OK with it.Well It is driving me crazy, I am obsessed and feel like shit.Help!

I am a 64 yr. old married Male top.I asked a young Lady at a spanking party to play and she accepted, we had a great scene.I spanked her hard and long with some rubbing and some pussy spanking. .... No real sex. ... I am obsessed and feel like shit.Help!

There is no reason to feel like shit.

But on the other hand, I wouldn't say there was 'no real sex' ... of course there was. Spanking can be a form of sex, naked spanking certainly, especially genital spanking. What you mean or are trying to convince yourself of is, there was no penetrative sex, no bj, probably no orgasming ... so therefore 'no real sex'.

Most of the things we discuss here is about sex of one kind or another. Medfet, rectal temps, enema play - it's just a different kind of sex.

Don't know if my definition of sex will make you feel better or worse (I certainly hope not).

No orgasms

No orgasms

Orgasms or not, sex is still sex. I'm certain you can ask any female member here and they will give you the same answer.

In any case, it's not something to get hung up on.