Prologue: I am a 34 year old lesbian RN who works in a clinic in Nevada.

I am very guarded about my lesbianism so as not to alarm anyone in this

homophobic world in which we live. Thus, no one at the clinic knows of

my orientation.

Also, nurses are taught in college to avoid becoming intimate with a

patient. Thus, I am very cautious about showing physical affection

toward a patient or acknowledging sexual remarks to me, usually from men

since I am very feminine looking. I am 5'7", 130 lbs, 36C, 24, 34.

Strawberry blond hair just past my shoulders and green eyes. I am often

complimented on my looks.

However, I did let my guard down one time with a very attractive female

patient who was in for a standard physical. I don't believe she knows of

my orientation, but I succumbed to her offer. Here it is:

A lady about my age and in very good physical condition has been a

patient at the clinic for many years. I have been administering her

annual physical for about the past five years. She is married and has

two children. During her last physical exam, she complimented me on my

gentle technique. I thanked her and continued with the exam. When we

finished the pap smear and it was time for her to stand on the floor and

bend over the table for the rectal exam, she mentioned to me as I was

gliding

my finger into her anus that the physician who used to examine her

before I began was very rough and caused her to dread the exam,

especially the rectal exam. Then, to my surprise, while I was still

inside her rectum, she told me how she has really come to enjoy the

rectal exam I do. I thought to myself that this is just another woman

who becomes physically excited by the stimulation of the nerves in the

rectal area. As I was pulling out of her, she stated that she has had

fantasies about my giving her a rectal exam for the past two years. She

turned to me and must have noticed the surprised look on my face. She

apologized

for being so frank, but she felt that she must tell me. She wanted to

know if it was wrong for her to think this way. I am normally a very

composed person. But, she caught me off guard. I must admit that I loved

giving her a rectal exam because of her sheer beauty. But, I could never

jeopardize my medical career and make such a statement. I just muttered

that it is somewhat common for a patient to become attached to a

caregiver, especially if the caregiver is gentle, as she said I am. But,

what she then said really floored me.

She thanked me for the enjoyable rectal exam and then asked me if she

could relate another fantasy to me. I said sure--I can keep a secret,

especially since we have a confidentiality agreement. She told me that

it is her fantasy to give me a rectal exam right after I give her one.

She wanted to know if she could carry out her fantasy now.

I must have turned beet red. She again apologized and said she was only

wondering. Here is this beautiful women standing in front of me with

nothing on but a bra and she wants to get sexual with me! I told her

that her fantasy was fine, but it put me in deep professional jeopardy.

She told me that she figured that much. And, that is why she would agree

to tell anyone, if word ever got out about this, that I was just

teaching her about rectal exams. This sounded far-fetched to me, but I

must have shown some sign of thinking about this idea. She then assured

me that this would only be between us since she could never tell her

husband

and since she knew that our relationship should stay professional.

Something in her voice convinced me that she was sincere. So, against my

better judgment, I agreed to let her rectally examine me.

I asked her if she wanted to put her panties back on. She said that her

fantasy required her to be in the same nakedness as when she got her

exam. I took her to the counter and showed her the rubber gloves and

lubricant. She took a moment to put the glove on since they are tricky

to put on for the first time. She then put a generous amount of

lubricant on her index finger and smiled. She looked at me with a gleam

in her eye and stated that she was ready for the exam.

I walked over to the exam table and slid my pink scrubs to my ankles and

then, to give her an erotic show without letting her know it, slowly

slid my white panties off my hips and to my knees. I bent over the

table. She instantly noticed the dimple I have in my right buttock. I

swear that every women I have ever been with falls in love with my

dimple. I must admit that it does look sexy, even to me in a mirror.

Anyway, this gal had been paying attention during my years of giving her

a rectal exam. She gently opened my buttocks with her left hand and

gently pressed her right index finger into my anus. As she slid in, she

mentioned

to me that this was the first time she had ever been inside a rectum.

She had never even fingered herself. She could not believe how tight it

is. She worked the finger in and out. I had a hard time not wanting to

cum because anal penetration feels great to me. But, soon enough, she

was done. I stood up and pulled my panties and scrubs back on. As I

turned around, she was smiling from ear to ear and pulling the glove

off. She cooed a thank you to me.

I asked her if she wanted me to complete her physical now. We did. She

did not mention anything of my rectal exam until we were done and she

was dressed, ready to leave. She thanked me and assured me that this

would be our secret. I went home that evening concerned about what I had

done. But, that was eleven months ago and nothing has ever been said. I

guess I am safe.

I must admit that I have a wonderful memory of not only my exam on her,

but also her exam on me. We will see what happens when she comes back

for her next physical at the end of summer.