34. Imagine yourself really wanting to be sexually aroused but, for some reason, you're not, based on everything you know about your sexuality, describe the fantasy that would be the very most likely to arouse you.

What I understand this question to pose is..."What is my most erotic fantasy that I would turn to if I could not be aroused." The following is something I have never been able to even commit to paper...yet at times it is so powerful to me that it drives me to abandonment in my thinking..."is it possible?" ...I don't know. Would I like to try it? Yes, at least once... I think! Afterward, I will put down on paper a progression of fantasies and events that have been in my life at various times. For the last 10-15 years what follows is the number one fantasy with variations that has plagued my life.

I make an appointment with a doctors office. It is a "Special Treatment" facility that specializes in sex exploration. I've filled out the paper work and now...I get to be seen by the medical staff.

I am in the waiting room. It is late in the afternoon when finally my name is called and a young nurse (sometimes an older nurse) in a nursing smock calls my name and asks me to follow her. As I walk through the corridor I notice the tile floor with its squares, I notice the various doors we pass that are closed, until we come to a door which says, "Treatment Room" on the door, and she walks in ahead of me.

The room is large enough to have several people in it. It is tiled and is typical of a medical room. There is an exam table a little past the middle of the room, there are trays that are covered with cloths, there is a standing pole on wheels, there is a sink, a toilet, and a dressing area with a curtain. The nurse asks me to go behind the curtain and remove all my clothes and put on the hospital gown that is there (the kind that is to be tied in back but rarely is). She invites me to empty my bladder before I start and suggests that I have a drink of water before we begin.

Once I have put on the garment and pulled the curtains back, she is standing there with a serious stance and look on her face. She calls me to come and sit on the end of the exam table where she begins to check blood pressure, look in my ears, listen to my heart, and feel my throat. Then she informs me there will be another nurse who will be assisting her (sometimes this nurse is younger or older) as they prepare me for the female doctor. I am told they have a series of things they want to do to see if I enjoy them or not.

I am told to lay back on the exam table and scoot my butt to the very edge of the table with my legs placed into the exam stirrups that hold the leg at the knee joint. As I am scooting on the table my gown is removed. The second nurse enters and I notice she has much less on as far as clothing. Still a "nurses uniform" but there seems to be no pants. They both then start putting restraining belts on me holding my mid-section fairly firm to the table, my legs are secured, my chest is secured and even my head has a strap loosely around my forehead. None of the straps are uncomfortable though all are a couple inches wide and secure.

At that point the female doctor comes in. She begins by telling the two nurses what she wants and they quickly leave the room to get the items she has requested. She comes over to me and looks down on me...checks the position I am in...checks the restraints...and smiles at me. "We are going to enjoy our time with you this afternoon," she says. "You signed a waver that we can try anything we want to do and so we are going to try several innovative techniques to get a response out of you. We want to know if you are able to ejaculate during certain procedures or if they repress your ability to have an erection." I am elated...this is what I have wanted for along time!

The two nurses come in and they have a large capacity enema bag with hose that they attach to the pole on wheels. They also have a tray with additional items beneath a cloth which is set near the end of the table. Both nurses are instructed to make me feel good by massaging my body...caressing my face and hair and kissing me. The younger nurse brings my hand down and lets me feel that she has no underwear on and that her vagina has been lubricated. She asks me to finger her and touch her as firmly or gently as I want. Meanwhile she is bent over me kissing me and playing with my nipples. I am aroused but can not see what the others are doing.

After a time she seems to experience an orgasm and steps away. I feel like I am fairly near to coming as well but the doctor squeezes the head of my penis and the erection fades. And I feel the doctor or nurse pouring oil/lubricant over my genitals and I hear rubber gloves being put on. Then begins a series of anal massages that push fingers and a dildo into my anus and rectum. I feel them playing with my prostate. I feel them pulling the foreskin down on my penis. They do not stay with any one thing vary long but they are simply touching, prodding, playing, pushing things into my rectum. And suddenly the doctor comes into view with an anal speculum and opens it and closes it several times for me to see. She then steps between my legs and I can feel it enter me and very slowly she begins to open it within me. It hurts as she opens it wider and wider. My erection fades. And the doctor has the nurse make a note of it.

Then they scope my rectum with a long metal tube and the doctor makes several more comments to the nurses. The anal speculum is removed. More lubricant is placed in my anus. It feels like they have placed some type of gel inside of me. The enema bag is brought alongside and a double-balloon-type nozzle is inserted into my rectum. Slowly the water begins to flow into me until I begin to moan and squirm. I begin to ask them to let me evacuate but the doctor will not allow me to do so. Both nurses begin to rub my belly...massage my chest...touch my penis...attempting to distract me from the enema. She gives me almost the whole gallon of water. My colon is full and it feels like the liquid solution has a chemical reaction in my gut. I am told I will hold it for several minutes. It is agonizing. They bring a large 5 gallon bucket over to the table and when the double balloon nozzle is removed the sensation is exquisite as my gut releases all the water and feces from my colon. The two nurses continue rubbing my belly following the contours of the various parts of the colon and try to push the water out. The doctor notes that my penis is flaccid at this point.

Again my anus is lubricated. A second larger enema bag is set on the pole. This time with very warm water. A very large colon tube is inserted into my anus. The doctor speaks and the younger nurse crawls up on the table and straddles my head. She has no underwear on. She begins to tease me with her vagina close to my face. I instinctively reach out to touch her with my tongue. Suddenly all I want to do is lick her vagina...to feel the inner part of her with my tongue the same way I did with my finger earlier. The water begins to flow into my rectum and colon. The doctor has been sliding the colon tube higher and higher as I was distracted. The other nurse begins to slide my foreskin back and forth and each time I think I might cum she squeezes the head of the penis between her thumb and forefinger. I am getting all kinds of sensations in my body. My mouth is being teased. My penis is being teased. And my ass is feeling the pressure of both a large colon tube going higher into me as well the water filling me. I feel light headed and ready to pass out.

The doctor sees my predicament and has both nurses stop what they are doing. She undoes the colon tube from the enema bag and allows the water to drain into the 5 gallon bucket as they slowly pull it out. They then release the strap over my forehead and loosen the one over my chest a bit. While that is happening they give me more liquid to drink and I am appreciative. My body feels limp...exhausted...this has not happened in a short time. Almost 2 hours have gone by and I have still not been able to climax

Now the doctor begins to stroke my penis taking the time to get an erection. The older nurse is now standing beside me and puts my hand down to her vagina. I feel that her vagina is lubricated. The younger nurse is now standing next to the doctor as the doctor picks up an urethral sound from the tray. While the younger nurse holds my penis, the doctor begins to lubricate and then insert the sound. I feel the weight of it. I feel it slide down my urethra. I feel it go past the point were it would stop and realize that the doctor is slowly making it go past my prostate. The sensation is one of pleasure and a bit of pain. She turns it. She pulls it up and pushes it back down. And she notes that my erection is no longer viable.

The doctor draws the sound out of my penis and speaks several short clipped sentences to the nurses. They hurriedly get something for her. I have let my head sink back and my eyes shut. I don't know when they will let me ejaculate but my body feels stretched to the limit. I hear the nurses and doctor doing something but this time I just want to feel what is coming. The doctor suddenly steps up on the platform at the end of the exam table. I glance down and realize she has a long strap-on dildo ready to invade my anus. The two nurses pull back my butt cheeks as the doctor very slowly begins to place the lubricated dildo into my ass. Once it is in, one nurse comes up to my head and begins to talk to me softly but tenderly. She starts playing with my nipples. The other nurse begins to play with my penis making it hard once again. The doctor tells the nurse playing with my penis to place a condom over it and begin sucking on it. The doctor continues to move her hips back and forth pushing the dildo in further and further.

Suddenly I feel I am about to cum. I've been breathing hard and the three of them are working at making my body feel good. I feel my testicles tighten. The nurse sucking on me stops and begins pumping my penis rhythmically. The nurse playing with my nipples and talking to me begins to look into my face warmly. And the doctor continues to move in and out...in and out. And I cum! I am screaming. My head is being thrown from side to side. I feel like every thing that is within me is trying to come out and it is hurting to do so. My penis feels almost raw...my ass is raw...but I have the most spectacular orgasm as I continue to ejaculate so much semen that it seems impossible that so much was in me. Never have I felt such relief or so much exertion in the process of coming. The doctor is pleased with the results and the restraints are undone. This has been a good first meeting at the "Special Treatment" facility. I look forward to coming back again.

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