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The context for this week: while Susan and the girls did not change their old ways, I was getting used to being treated as a very young girl. I used to think there was a war between us, but I started seeing this whole regression as a whole new type of peace instead. While I was still getting suppositories, had to wear pink a lot along with other baby-ish stuff, I thought of these things more and more as part of a normal daily routine.

This week has been relatively peaceful. I have called Susan mommy quite a few times, which made her really happy. I have also used the potty quite regularly for both number 1 and number 2. When at home, I carried around my pink blankie and Lily, the teddy bear around and proudly wore the skirt. I watched the evening cartoons and TV shows with Lydia and Erica. While I did not love them, I got used to them. I have regularly asked Susan on what I am and I am not allowed to do. I tried to avoid any reason to piss her off; I was still afraid of her getting angry and spanking me.

As a result, everyone in the house treated me very nicely over the week. Lydia and Erica played with me without laughing at my skirt and mommy gave me chocolate and candy regularly. I started to think: maybe this punishment can be over soon if I follow their orders a few more days. The school holidays were coming up to and daddy was supposed to come back to us for a few weeks. Both of these filled me with hope and joy.

Saturday morning and the weekend silence

I woke up Saturday morning with mom sitting on my bed. The girls were still asleep. Mom was still wearing her grey pajamas, which looked like the one I used to wear weeks before. She leaned in, her breasts were pressing against me, her soft PJs tickling my skin. She grabbed me and lifted me up - I was still dozing off. I found myself in her bedroom, a minute or so later. Lily, the teddy bear, and my blankie were nowhere around me. The lights were still off, we were in almost perfect darkness. She placed me on her bed and finally started talking to me:

'Jo, you were a very good girl over the week. However, mommy is tired and there is a lot going on today. I would like you to help me out today, okay?' I nodded and mom's facial expression grow happier 'Great. So I need you to do two things: one is to do whatever I ask you to do today and tomorrow. The second thing is that I need you to remain completely silent over the weekend, today and tomorrow as well. You will not be allowed to say a word. Starting right now. You need to do this for me. You know that mommy knows best.'

'But..' I started to talk, but her hand slid over my mouth. I shook her head and gave me a serious look.

'You promise? If you don't promise it will make me very very sad. Nod, if you promise.' I nodded. I did not want to be hurt. After all, the week was fine and I don't think I needed to talk much. After a minute of hesitation, mom smiled again.

'Good. Now let me quickly take your temperature and then I will dress you up.' I almost said something about this, but mom kept her hand on my mouth, still reminding me that I have to stay silent. 'Hm, I think this might not be easy. I have to emphasize how important it is for me and you that you remain silent. The whole weekend.' For some reason, a teardrop appeared in the corner of my eyes. I wasn't sad, just very sensitive. 'Maybe this helps.' mom told me and disappeared for a second. She went back to my bedroom and picked up the paci. She put the paci in my mouth and I started sucking on it hard. It calmed me down and I felt at peace again.

Mom turned me on my belly and pulled my pajama pants down completely along with my underwear. I have barely noticed when she inserted the thermometer in my rear entrance. I waited a few minutes laying in the darkness on her bed. When mom took it out she spoke ambiguously:

'Hm, I am not sure. You do not seem to have any fever, but your temperature is not right. I think you might get a fever soon. Let me give you a small suppository to prevent this.' She placed her hand on my back so I couldn't move. I didn't want to say anything, so I just grunted while sucking on the paci. Mom smiled. 'Making noises is okay, but please don't speak.'

She swiftly slid a small butt pill in me. Again, similarly to the thermometer, I felt almost none of it. As my butt hole closed, my belly felt nicely full. Although I have noticed that she did not even stand up while taking my RT and giving me the suppo. Probably, she had the suppository ready with her while taking my temperature. As a later learned, mom was a careful planner; she has basically never improvised and for some reason always knew what was up next. That is probably the reasons she liked my dad and my dad liked her. She pressed my butt cheeks together so that I don't push out the suppository. After a brief moment passes, she pulled back my pajama pants on me.

She laid down next to me and hugged me. We laid there together for another 5 minutes. I was listening to her heavy breathing, enjoying the warmth coming from her chest. Only Erica's noises distracted our intimate moment. Mom got up from the bed, picked me up as well and walked out with me.

'Girls! Come and let's have breakfast!' she shouted and head down with me to the dining room.

The breakfast table was already half-made - cereals, some peanut butter, some jelly in the middle along with some forks and knives placed at the seats. Mom brought some milk and some non-toasted bread to the table. We all sat around and started eating.

Erica and Lydia were explaining to mom what they dreamt about. Erica noticed that I was very silent.

'Jo, what did you dream about?' I looked at worryingly at mom, who was frowning at me. I decided to remain silent. 'Joooo, what did you dream about?' Erica looked frustrated but noticed the looks mom gave me. 'Mom, what's going on?'

'Jo has been talking a bit too much over the week.' Mom started. 'I need her to understand that sometimes she needs to remain silent. So, she won't be talking at all today and tomorrow. Right, Jo?' she asked me an I have nodded.

'Ehmm... weird.' Erica said and that was it, she turned back to Lydia. A second later, I had a sudden urge hitting me. I had to use the potty, very likely number 2. I stood up and walked upstairs. In our bedroom, I couldn't find the potty. It wasn't in the corner as it used to be. I was not in one of the shelves. I thought it might be in the bathroom, however, the bathroom door was locked. I walked over to mom's room but there wasn't any potty anywhere.

The urge was building up fast, so I rushed down and grabbed mom's pajama top. She turned towards me and lifted her fingers up her mouth. I should not say a word. Instead, she said something else 'Jo, let me and the girls finish breakfast. Just because you have finished, it does not mean we are done too. Sit back to your place.'

I walked back to my seat and as I sat down, I could not withhold it anymore. I let out a quiet fart. A crackling sound and a large long log of poop followed. I was scared of making any sounds, so I crunched and grabbed my tummy as I filled up my pants. I realized that the suppository that mom gave e was probably not against fever.

I looked up and the girls did not seem to notice anything. They continued their chatter. Erica had peaked at me a few times, then her mouth curved up into a smile on her face as she turned to mom: 'Mom, I think I know what Jo wanted. She has pooped herself. I think I smell it.'

Lydia made a disgusted face, while mom remained calm and neutral. 'That is okay' she said 'Let me finish my breakfast and then I will change Jo. Jo, could you go into the living room so we don't have to smell you?'

I stood up embarrassed and retracted to the living room. I squat down in the corner, worried that I will make a mess on the floor. Took another 10 minutes to mom re-appear. By the time she has arrived, I squished the excrement around in my underwear and some of it slid into my pajama pants.

Mom brought a towel and a toilet roll with her. She placed the towel in front of me and then she asked me to lay on it. She took off my pants making 'eew' sounds. She wiped my bum and folder the towel over me. It took a good five minutes to clean me. Afterward, I got some pants on (why not skirt?) and a boyish top. I was not sure why, but I couldn't say a word. I learned a reason in a few hours.

Saturday afternoon with guests

We were a few hours after lunch (no more accidents and still no talking!) when the guests started to arrive. There were so many! Mostly girls who were in the same class with Erica, some from the class with me and Lydia. Their mom and, a few times, their dad. The guys were treated with beer and sat outside chatting, while the moms were inside sitting around.

Initially, I stayed upstairs. However, when some of Erica's friends came up, they told me my mom wants everybody to come down. We descended a few minutes later. Mom gave me a baby bottle that I had to drink from. Some moms giggles, while others have asked why I have to use that.

'Jo is going through some tough times. Dad is away in a mission, only returning next week or after. The doctor said Jo is having anxiety attacks - this was not true, but I was not allowed to say a word - and he can not be trusted with glasses.' When she turned towards me, I have nodded. 'Jo also prefers to remain silent. This helps to cope with stress. The other moms looked skeptical, but they let it go a few minutes later.

Later at the party, mom has refilled the plastic bottle with orange juice - my favorite drink! - but she forgot to lock the head on properly. I only realized this when I tried jugging the bottle and the head fell off pouring all the OJ over me. I got really upset and started crying in front of everyone. 'Ah, I am so sorry, please forgive me for a minute!' mom has said and grabbed my hand. She took me to the bathroom, took all my clothes off and dried me with a towel.

'Okay, let us go back' she exclaimed and grabbed my hand, starting to pull me out to the living room. I was completely naked and tried to resist. She was too strong and I found myself in the living room again, butt naked. Some men were just coming in from the balcony and they made an awkward face. So did the moms, all of them went quiet. Their daughters - some of them my classmates - burst out laughing, at least until their parents shushed them. I felt incredibly embarrassed, but I kept thinking 'Mommy knows best'. Tears kept rolling down my cheeks.

'I am so sorry. Excuse me, I have to take him up to have a proper bath," mom said and led me up to the bedroom. The noises grow stronger as I left the living room. Even some of the older women started laughing.

A minute or so later, I was standing in the bathroom, naked front of mom and her lady friend, who followed us up. Her name was Danielle and I think she was one of the moms of one of Lydia and my classmates. Danielle looked like a nice lady. She was wearing a comfortable looking blue cardigan and a large skirt. Her face looked very bright, I think she was using one of those makeups mom and the girls talked some days before. When I glimpsed at her again, I realized she was not wearing any shoes.

I was used to showing my skin to mommy but it was unusual for me to do the same front of a stranger. Although Dani has definitely seen me naked, I still tried covering my body. Mom has noticed this and made a reassuring comment: 'Don't worry about being naked in front of Danielle, she will help me to bath you. I see some tears in your eyes still, so put this pacifier in your mouth, maybe it helps to calm you down.'

I was glad to get the pacifier from mommy and started sucking on it as soon as I felt her putting it in my mouth. Then she grabbed me and placed me in the bathtub. She opened the taps, set it to lukewarm so that they could start washing me straight away.

'Close your eyes. Let me shampoo your hair.' Mommy told me. 'Dannielle, could you wash the other body parts?'

It still felt somewhat awkward for mommy to avoid referring to me as a 'he'. She told a number of people at the party that she considers me to be one of her daughters. I am not sure how much of this helped to cement the idea of me acting like a girl in front of everyone. Until today, I am not sure if anyone ever considered what happened to me to be abusive or I was just that odd kid who liked wearing skirts.

While my eyes were closed, I felt Danielle's hand run across my back, grabbing my arms, then washing my tummy and my leg. She did not touch my intimate areas or my butt, that was left for mommy in the end. Meanwhile, Mommy has gently rubbed some shampoo on my head while. After finished she washed down the shampoo then she reached between my bottom cheeks, then forward and gently cleaned me down there.

It tickled me so I laughed up and I managed to split the pacifier out my mouth. She and Danielle laughed at that together then fetched it back to me. My previous embarrassment was gone by now. Both ladies were happy that I was feeling a bit better.

'Okay, we are done...' mommy said with a sense of accomplishment. '...and you stopped crying too. This is awesome. Come jump into mommy's arms.' she opened her arms and I have done what she told me: jumped on her with a loud wordless grunt. Danielle chuckled.

'Ha, so much energy now!' mommy claimed 'Now let put you in bed. You had a long day.' then she turned to Danielle 'Dani, could you grab the towels and that medical box over there?'

Mommy was holding me close to herself. Without a towel, I made her top very wet, but I think she did not mind. She brought me into my room and placed me face-down on my bed. Danielle put the towel on me and started drying me with it. It tickled a little bit so I laughed up again spitting the pacifier on my side.

'Good, now turn on your back so we can dry you on the other side too.' mommy told me and I have turned around very quickly. A few seconds later she added: 'Dani if you are done with drying Jo, grab Jo's legs and lift them up. I need to take a rectal temperature.' she also leaned above me 'is that okay Jo, if I take your temperature in your little butt? Mommy wants to make sure you have no fever.'

I nodded with a smile and let Danielle lift my legs up without resistance. The fight I had in me weeks ago was completely gone. I did not even understand why and how I was resisting all this care and love.

Danielle held my legs up, while mommy inserted a rectal thermometer in my ass. I was still very warm from the bath so the tip of the thermometer felt a bit too cold. Mommy smiled at me when she saw I was a bit uncomfortable. 'you are so brave!' she encouraged me.

The thermometer came out and mommy sounded relieved. 'Good, Jo is not having any fever anymore! Let's turn you around Jo and put some baby powder on your bottom! Close your legs!' I gladly obliged and a few seconds later felt my butt being refreshed.

'Okay, now stay like this for a second.' mommy told me then she turned to Danielle 'Could you grab the padded brief and Jo's new pink pajamas from the lower shelf? Now, Jo, I don't want you to be restless so I'm going to give you a suppository so that you can sleep tight. Is that ok?'

I did not answer, just laid there quietly. I assumed, mommy will know that I am happy if I don't move around much.

'Wonderful. Please make sure your breath in and out slowly. Dani, for now just leave the nightwear on the side. Could you separate Jo's legs for a second? Thanks.' The next things happened pretty quickly. Danielle's gentle hands moved my legs apart and less then a few seconds later I felt a rather large object pressing against my rear end. I would have cried weeks ago if mommy tries to put this in me, but I was so used to suppositories at this point that I have barely made a shriek.

The large suppo felt sitting inside me comfortable. I had a sudden urge to push it out, but I knew I shouldn't. Mommy would punish me if I push it out. Dani has also held my cheeks together making sure nothing like this will happen.

'Was that okay?' asked mommy to which I have nodded. She turned me around and started putting my pajamas on. 'Do you like Jo's new pink pajamas?' she asked Dani 'I think it fits you better. Especially if we want Jo to be one of the girls.'

Mommy finally grabbed the pacifier and put it back to my mouth. 'Alright darling, you are ready to sleep. Let's go, Dani, let's see what the other girls and guys are up to.' mommy gave me a goodnight kiss on my forehead and covered me with the duvet. Both of them left the room a few seconds later.

I found my blankie under the duvet so I grabbed it and put it between my legs. I have turned on my back and fell asleep while still trying to hold the butt pill in and sucking on the pacifier.

Sunday with calmness

Sunday was short and sweet: this was the first time I have received no suppository. I think it happened because I was a very good girl all week.

At the end of the day, I realized: I love mommy.

Coming up: Week 7 (Last Week!)

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