9/17/23

It's still boring here . I awoke at 5:30 am ,

We must have a new crew ,,,, By now I should have coffee , Been given my morning meds .{ The pill count keeps getting larger} and some one in to check and refill my drinking water pitcher , I will say someone emptied my night bag and they didn't wake me .

The useable { yes I know I spelt that wrong } ,,,, What the normal routine is ,,,, 4:30 am , The neighbor to my right gets changed as he can't do it himself, His bed is cleaned and fresh linin applied ,,,,, Next my neighbor across the room , { we are packed in here in a L shape with me closest to the door } They change my the guy across the room from me diapers , bed , etc , then emptie my night bag , we exchange good mornings and how are you today ;s , New crew ,,,, I'll have to retrain them ,,,,, Where IS MY COFFEE!!!!!!! .

Where I last wrote , I was having problems passing bladder stones . It got real bad . They kept doing bladder flushing , This went on for a week .

I know how to care for myself ,,, I have the tools here to do so . It's just that after my head wound I need help doing some things ,,,

It got so painful passing the stones , I quit asking for help , I got myself into my chair ,,, so that I could get to my dresser and get the "shit" i needed ,,, got out a diaper , Deflated the balloon myself , Pulled that garden hose of a catheter out ,,,,, Looked at it ,,,,,, It was covered with large stones and blood clots ..... It hurt like hell coming out . The nurses were all upset when they realized I had removed it myself . I had to explain over and over No I didn't just pull it out ,,, And I used my phone to photograph the damn thing ,,, And they all finely agreed it had to come out . It was plugged up .

Three days later ,,,,,, ,,,,,, I informed my nurses that I had quit passing stones ,,,, Two shift's I told them , "I'm ready to put a catheter back in . "

I got tired of waiting ,,,, Went into my closet . I have two cases of catheters ,,, I have two HUNDRED insertion kits . One hundred night bags and one hundred leg bags . They don't have leg bags here ..... Can you guess what I did ????? Yeah I put my own catheter in .... It wasn't fun , I almost didn't get it done . And again my nurses FREEKED out . All three shifts had to come in check it out .

What I didn't tell them was after the 26fr catheter was out for three days ,,,, I felt a ,,, almost but not really painful "pop" as it went in and after the "pop" it went to the Y inflation port . easily .

That tell's me that more then just for the stone's the catheter had to come out so my body could heal from some of the abuse I had gone though before .

Ah Coffee ,,,, The kid that is most reliable to bring coffee is gay , And you can tell he try's hard not to be "flaming" . But you know what ??? I like the kid ,, He try's hard to do right .