Before I took a snit and deleted my old blog, I had a section up where I had transcribed an interview my husband did of me. It was pretty popular. I no longer have it and I made him delete the video he had taken when we did it (I don’t think I looked good in it) so it’s gone. I thought about re-creating it but I don’t like backtracking - so I’ll do something a little different. How about an FAQ?
Some of these are actually questions I’ve been asked here. Some are questions I’ve been asked on another website and some are ones hubby thinks people might be interested in. I may make him do one as well. We’ll see.
So - be sure you really want to read this before you dive in.
Are you real?
Yes? OK, so am I a real person, yes. Am I female? Yes. Have I done all the things I’ve said I’ve done? Yes. Am I a nurse? No. I did work in an ER though as a phlebotomist as well as an admin.
How old are you?
I’m 58 and holding. I’m that weird mix of Boomer and GenX - born right in the border years of the demographic. Depending on when you mark the cut-off I fall into either and share characteristics of both. I think the boomerisms come from having much older parents. I’m post menopausal.
What do you do for a living?
I’ve done many things. I’ve worked retail, I’ve worked in the school system, I’ve been an executive assistant for a major financial firm, I have started and run several small businesses, I’ve worked in an ER as an admin as well as a phlebotomist. I’ve modeled. I’ve acted. I’ve voice acted. I’ve published books (no really I have - Romance novels and Children’s Books). I’m not particularly conventional.
Are you healthy?
More or less. I’ve moderate scoliosis. I’ve a condition called Ehlers-Danlos syndrome which means I’m bendy like a circus freak but that’s not good because now that I’m 58 and holding I’ve got some serious joint issues and osteoarthritis which cause pain. I’m non-neurotypical which means I don’t think like the rest of y’all. I deal with depression. I’m an alcoholic, used to be what they called ‘functioning’ but I’ve had to stop drinking this past year because it was causing gastro issues. Yes I miss it. I’ve an addictive personality. I’ve had other addictions in the past. I’m not proud of it. I’m substance free at the moment with the exception of THC which I micro-dose for chronic pain.
Do you like sex?
Yes. Not as much as I used to before menopause but yes. It used to be a part of my identity - I was very much a sexual being. By objective standards I still am but I feel the difference and don’t like it. Tried HRT but I get migraines so no. I am doing a low-dose HRT via vaginal suppositories and that helps the physical issues but my libido is maybe a third of what it was. I average sex with my husband twice a week. 3 years ago it was daily. I don’t always want it those times but I will NOT have sex less than that as long as he wants it. Maybe half the time I’m looking for it, on the other half maybe half of that I get into it once we start and for the other half I happily let him use me as he wishes. Because I love him.
Don’t you also have sex with others?
Yes I do. I have a female lover (who is also my cousin) J and a male lover S. I see the woman maybe once a month. We don’t always have sex when we get together but we usually do. Sometimes she joins hubby and I. I see my male lover when the mood strikes and usually with hubby. He likes watching me be slutty and seeing him turned on turns me on. I get what I need from S which is mainly non-loving sex. Don’t get me wrong, sex with Hub is numero uno. It’s very faaaaar from vanilla - unless we want it to be - but a part of me, small happily but there - needs to be a whore. By that I mean someone who is used. No matter how nasty sex with hubby is I never ever feel used, but sometimes I need to feel used. To feel dirty after. Guilty. Degraded (not verbally). I get that from S. Hubby understands. NOTE WELL: I am NOT looking for anyone reading this to degrade me. Do so at your own peril!
There’s also another couple we’ve played with a few times. Hub has started a relationship with the woman with my blessing and encouragement. They see each other infrequently. We’ve played together as well.
Why don’t you post nudes anymore?
I still do, just not as often. Several reasons: 1) I’m worried about being recognized. In the unlikely event that any of you ever see me in public and think you recognize me for fuck’s sake DO NOT COME SAY HI. I keep my real life and Zity separate. If I’m ever approached in public I’d be more likely to call a cop than say hi. Seriously. I have no idea if you’re nice or nuts, I’ll defer to safe thank you. 2) I’m 58 and holding. I don’t like how I look most days. Thank you to those who tell me that I look good. I’m glad you think so, but I look at me and see an old lady. Maybe I’ll post pictures and maybe I won’t. Sorry.
What’s with the digital art and stories?
I like to write. I like to paint. I like to take photographs. I just discovered DAZ 3D (a graphic art program) and have become slightly obsessed with it. I’ve said I have an addictive personality. I’ve spent way more money on digital props for this thing than I should have. I have an understanding husband. I’ve created a set of characters and I’m writing an on-going story about them for fun. Some of you seem to like it. I do it for the loves and the comments so please keep them coming if you do.
Is your AV you?
That’s one of my digital characters I’ve named Rory. She’s based on me and is a self-portrait of what I looked like in my twenties. Fantasy story Rory acts like me in my 20’s, SF story Rory more like the me in my 40’s.
I’m an exhibitionist who doesn’t like how she looks anymore - so maybe this digital me is a way to continue to expose myself. Who knows, I’m weird.
Are the other characters anyone?
Colin is based on my husband and is a portrait of him as a younger man. Others may be loosely based on friends with their permission. If they want to tell you they will.
What do you do for fun?
First and foremost I’m a grandmother. My only regret is that I don’t live closer to the grandkids. Aside from that, in no particular order I: Cook, bake, read, write, have an obsession with British TV, shoot guns, garden, fuck. I used to run but the joints won’t take it anymore. I also paint (watercolor and acrylic), needle felt, and make jewelry. No I don’t sleep much. Often I’m doing more than one of these things at the same time. Ooo! Squirrel! Yes.
Feel free to ask me what you want. I might answer it. If it’s something I’ve talked about many times before I may just tell you to read my posts in the forum. That isn’t me being rude, it’s just me saying that I’ve said all I really want to say on that topic.