10-30-2022

We’ll yesterdays messing was not as big a mess as I thought it was gonna be. This time i layed on my side and pooped. Normal I’m on my knees bent over, standing and bent over, sitting and I push as hard as I can. But this time I layed in my side. made it a little better in the sense I had to wipe my self a little more cause of how it came out. Which reminds me i need to get more wipes 😁. I don’t think I’ll have to go again today but I should tomorrow. I’m off Tuesday and Wednesday. I think I’m gonna eat a bunch of prunes on Tuesday to make self have to go. I want the strong strong cramps where no matter how hard you squeeze your cheeks together and try to hold it nothing will work and I’m forced we’ll I should never say forced cause I prefer it but I’m forced to poop in my diaper and there’s nothing I can do to stop it. plus Monday night until thursday morning I’m gonna diaper my self around the clock. Gonna have to order more diapers.

Went to Walmart in my diaper. It’s becoming natural feeling walking around in public with it on. I have to pee so bad. I tried letting go at the store but I became bladder shy. Maybe one day I’ll be able to wet my diaper in public. 😵‍💫

well I managed to mess my diaper. Had to use a few suppositories again. I pushed and pushed and pushed as hard as I could to get everything out. Wasn’t much. But still a little is better than none. Once I went, I put 2 more suppositories in to see if there was anything else. i pushed those out, cleaned my self up Then I stuck my finger up my bum as far as i could get it to go and pushed as hard as I could to see if I felt anything. I felt nothing, so that’s it for tonight. I’m not gonna diaper until bed tomorrow night. Then I’m gonna be diapered Tuesday and Wednesday around the clock. then on Thursday I’ll start taking my enemas again.