Please be kind

A friend of mine has always told me that i need to learn to stand up for myself and stand my ground. But i hate to write its not that easy for me, some would say its just a excuse but unfortunately we are creatures of habit. I was always the one who tried to smooth things out when things got rocky at home. No one realizes how rocky it was when I was younger. I was taught from a young age what happens at home stays behind these doors we paste on a happy face and pretend all is well, so unfortunately the pasted smile remains. Unfortunately now it is affecting the way I am being treated medically. I know my orthopedic does not believe that I am really in pain. I am sure he has to be on the lookout for drug seekers but I DO NOT take pain pills unless I am half dead I have always been that way. My mom sees orthopedic tomorrow for her knee and I am sure he will get a earful and then some because she's seeing the same doctor I will be with her but will be seeing my foot doctor 30 minutes after hers so I will be waiting in a different area. I am going to start walking in boot tomorrow. Hopefully once I start walking hip pain calms down but if it doesn't I am completely lost at what to do. I know I am worth a second opinion but if Mom wants to stay with this orthopedic I dont want to ruin things for her. I am sorry to share here but I think it helps to write things down and get opinions of others that care. Please be kind and thoughtful on your answers because I don't need anymore opposition right now.

respectfully

DAKOTASUZ