First Day

7:55 AM -I've been into enemas and spankings for many years. My Barbara taught both to me in special ways, and, with her passing a couple of years ago, there was a great void in my life. I took to more frequent enemas, learned to give myself spankings with a wide belt as well. With all this, there was still a void.

Then, I discovered a box I thought had been disposed of after Barb's death. it had some of her underclothes, pantyhose, two girdles, and two of her vibrators. I always wondered what it might feel like to dress in women's clothes, especially her pantyhose and panties. Put the box aside and promptly forgot again where it was stored.

Just a couple of days ago, I was searching through a closet off our bedroom, and up came the box. My feeling began to get the most of me. I had already taken a big soapsuds enema that morning, and shortly after laid 75 whacks on my ass. Now it was time to go further. I looked through the box, found a pair of her ‘control panties’, and put them on over my pink, hurting ass. The stretch cloth actually cooled my ass down, and the pain went quickly to a dull ache. I decided to wear them under my jogging pants.

9:30 AM - Been wearing the panties and pantyhose for over 90 minutes now. They feel great, but I am getting a strange ‘feeling’ from my butt. I think it is telling me it wants one of her vibrators up there. Will see how this plays out

They feel really good. More later.