Do you do the whole ‘end of year introspective’ thing? I usually don’t but I’ve been making scrapbooks for my kids and it’s caused me to go through a LOT of old photos as part of the process. That can’t but help resurrect memories. The first photo in the collage attached here was from 1981 – literally 40 years ago. The 2nd was taken in 2012 and the 3rd a few weeks ago. Why did I make this collage? Well, aside from the similarity in expression, they’re pretty indicative of where I was at each point in time as well as precursors to milestone events.
The first is a modeling shot. I was in the process of finishing High School (mods, I was not a minor when this shot was taken) and my goal was to become a professional model. Well, I was already a professional one as I had been paid for shoots, let’s say my goal was to make a living at it. That goal was never to be realized. A year after this was taken I became a mother for the first time. It’s a girlish shot. I was attempting to be sexy and, in my mind and I guess for the times maybe I was pulling it off. I thought I knew everything. Looking at it I realize how naïve I was.
The second shot was taken by my boyfriend. I was fairly recently divorced. I was living on the beach in my own place, supporting myself. I was coming into my own as an artist, and, as you can see from the pose, a woman who enjoyed her sexuality. Not that I ever went through a period of NOT liking sex, but the free and easy pose here reflects where I was at that point in my life. A year after this photo was taken I became a grandmother for the first time. It’s the photo of a woman who was finally getting to explore what being an adult meant.
The third shot was taken by the same person as the second, but this time he was my husband. I never planned on getting married again but I’m very, very glad I did. This is in our first house purchased together. The pose is confident. A woman who knows what she likes and knows what she wants. There are 40 years between the first and third photos.