Keep on keeping on

The emptiness that fills my soul not many could understand and there are scars that no one knows behind this tired smile. I am told that I am strong but not given a choice on what to do. The battles have been many and the victories are few. But people have truly blessed my life I have not walked alone, even though sometimes it feels that way when no one is around. I have had many people I love pass to the other side and when the paths gets darkest its them I would love to confide. I know that I am loved but when pain is always there, its hard not to hear the past even when you do not share. I am trying hard to be better and not always do self blame, but when awake alone at 3 am it happens alone in shame. But I know that i can get out of this rut with help from those I love, the people here I cherish on earth and the ones from up above, Lord knows I am far from perfect this I must confess but I am trying very hard God's living work in progress.

DAKOTASUZ