Kink as a gateway drug
Does your kink evolve? If it does is it called ‘kinkolution’? I’ve been sorting old photos. I’m a scrapper. Yes I’m at the age where I was exposed to the scrapbooking phenomenon in the 90’s but I’ve been interested in preserving things for as far back as I can remember. I started my first scrapbook in grammar school. I’ve dozens of scrapbooks and thousands of pictures taken in the old days of film camera in boxes. During the waxing of the moon I tend to ‘nest’. I get urges to do projects around the house etc. I got a hair across my ass to sort those loose photos into boxes for my kids – one box for each and a box of mixed. Ya know, for like when I die they can find the pictures of themselves easily. Yes I’m weird. Among the loose and digital photos of my kids are some of the early ones of my husband and I. The family friendly ones and the not so family friendly ones. The latter go into a ‘burn if I die’ box. No one needs to see grandma tied to the bed with a dildo in her ass. Some legacies are best aborted.
Looking back there’s definitely a different vibe to those pictures. Well for one, I was younger and thinner but it’s more than that. There’s a level of enthusiasm that’s missing from my current ones. Don’t mistake me, I am still enthusiastic about sex and kink; I’m still one horny old lady, but, dare I say it, there’s a maturity to my kink that was missing in those older photos. Maybe a tad bit of jadedness? Wisdom? Well, let’s not go that far.
When my husband and I first got together and realized our kinks were compatible (hell, that they existed at least from my perspective) there was a kid in the candy shop aspect to things. Less for him as he had prior kinky lovers to me, but I didn’t even KNOW I was as kinky as I am prior to him. I had all of the fantasies, sure, and knew I was a little weird but I didn’t know quite how weird until I started indulging. Limits were set and then moved (by me). Then moved again. Then abandoned. We did a lot of role-playing with elaborate set-ups and back-stories (we’re both theater geeks). A lot of the role-playing involved either pretend audiences or pretend others.
It’s no secret that I’ve an exhibitionist streak a mile wide. Our photographing each other began as a way to help me satisfy that streak. The pictures weren’t to be shared. Then we started talking about ‘what if…’ It evolved into his ‘commanding me’ to post certain pictures in a D/s sense. He’d pick out photos, sometimes ones I didn’t like, and ‘make’ me post them. It worked. It was hot, it was humiliating, it was exciting, it pushed all the right buttons. He gets off on other guys seeing me (and using me) but not in a cuckold way but more like a pimp? ‘Forcing’ me to expose myself to others. The photo with this blog and this video were an early version of our exploring that part of our shared kink.
https://imgur.com/a/K2zURPb
He was ordering me to expose myself. To show my pussy (my wet, open, dirty pussy) to someone else via his videoing it. It was so humiliating, so reducing, so FUCKING HOT!
Role-play became less satisfying. Eventually we added another person. (Well 2 people but the other is her own story and separate from this). I might have a new story to share in a few weeks. We’ll see.
Kink relationships are weird. My husband treats me better than any man I’ve ever known. He’s loving, kind, a true partner, confidant, amazing lover, and best friend. He also beats me so hard sometimes it leaves bruises, shows my naked body on the internet and holds me down, looking into my eyes while another man fucks my ass. And I’m totally OK with all of that. So is kink something that evolves or are kinky activities a gateway drug, causing you to want to try more and more?
Comments
rousedmurmur 6 months ago
May your kinks continue to evolve and bring you nothing but pleasure you'd never speak about to most
Patientin 6 months ago
Dear Nurse Phillip+ How I feel and understand what you are writing about! On the one hand, the "burn it after my death" box. Lol. On the other hand, how much you bring the next degree to the kink!
Pecan nutjob 7 months ago
The pleasure you now have exhibiting yourself is only equaled by the pleasure that some of us have in seeing your pictures. I like the air that you have in many of them of a woman who expects her husband to perform his duties… or has just had him perform them. You are at ease with your desires.
UncleO 7 months ago
As we age and gain experiences we seem to split into two camps. Those who refine what they get the most out of and those who are ever pushing the envelope. I’m in the former, which in kink seems to be rarer.
Sailing Master 7 months ago
@Nurse_Phillips I would be way too covetous to share you with anyone...but perhaps that would be my flaw with a woman like you. Perhaps your husband loves you so much that he feels the need to set you free...if only temporarily. Fascinating Post, thank you for your ideas.
Cedar 7 months ago
Seems like kink is more complex than you know and a lot deeper than think. This was another great post @Nurse _Phillips.
Ms Lila 7 months ago
@Nurse_Phillips is it that perhaps the word you were looking for in place of 'jaded' might be 'resolved'? As in I'll never go back to vanilla.🤔
Meat Monster 7 months ago
@Nurse_Phillips from some of your facial expressions of the pictures you have posted, I get the impression that you are asking a question or making a statement, this is what my kink looks like. It's me and do you understand what it is that you are looking at? Can you appreciate what I'm giving you?
Speaking only for myself, my kink has become a part of me and who I am but only for a very select few and only. You talk about your husband and your face is what I see in @Dahiana when we are doing something or sharing something that has become a part of us. Enemas are no longer new to us but there is no way we are going to let them go. The random enemas I give her are no longer a shock or surprise for her but it is who we have become. I know what to look for in her face and if your husband saw what you posted here then he would know what you were feeling and who it was for.
I see a wife who loves her husband because he understands what makes her tick.
LordJim2 7 months ago
I think you are probably right about it being a gateway. Like everything else I think we tend to evolve and that includes our kink and or sex life.
It is part of our curious nature I believe.
Loved the video of your tasty pussy. I hope your hubby continues to "force" you to show yourself so intimately. :)
biman2 7 months ago
kinks are a drug and a powerful drug,but once the kink has been done a few times,you go looking for more and more intense kinks,thats what makes them so good.