I guess the start of evolved around my single mother (nurse) she was very strict, with little patience. She believed in cleanliness, discipline and learning for your own good in time. She always told me she was brought up with learning at a early age to listen to your elders for your own good. Also many things my seem harsh and un-usual but in time they will be for your own good. So I had bulb enemas until got bigger than the big bag and her enemas were a complete series, soap and several rinses. I got spanked bare bottom for very small mis-deeds. Hand spanked until I matured then it was table tennis paddle. I had a hard time sitting for the next day. She would always make the statement it's for my own good and in time I will realize it made me a better person. I'm a very good person now, I keep telling myself. Not sure but we all have fetishes and fantasies. I believe some originate as we matured and some developed thru time, chatting with people, thru the media and allowing our minds to explore. We should never stop learning and keep a open mind. Fantasies are all in our mind and are there to enjoy and to harm no one.