Beginning to think I am a "LITTLE"

Even though I have been here for about 2 years I am still not sure about all the different sexual aspects the Zity site offers. I thought I had an enema fetish, but after perusing the Age Play comment area and the diaper stuff I am being to think I may be a LITTLE. I hope I am using that term correctly. The virus year has stunted my sexual growth so I am still very new to all the activities I have discovered. This "LITTLE" thing really interests me but I am not into diapers or being an Adult Baby. BUT, I really get excited by being cared for in a gentle loving manner. I don't want to be "plowed" or "stuffed" or "reamed" and I am beginning to realize that enemas are only a subtext in my fantasies; enemas are the supporting actors not the starts! No wonder I am not excited by all the solutions and tools associated with enemas. The enema is just a simple red rubber bag with a black nozzle and filled with warm water; there are no rubber gloves or surgical masks or strange rooms filled with even stranger implements. Holy Shit, Batman! What LITTLE wants to be confronted by a gas masked rubber gloved "daddy" holding a nozzle that would make an elephant blush! What LITTLE wants to be dragged into a room that would make a dungeon seem comfortable! I am looking for a parental type fantasy world and that type of world seems to be in the "diaper" area! But, I also do not want to be a baby although I do admit that the idea of parental RT's and enemas and spankings are exciting. When I saw this term, "LITTLE" it seemed to make sense. However, I am not sure if I totally understand the term. I want to be "little" but it is not so much an age as it is an emotion concept. I mean fantasies are very surreal for me. I can be any age as long as the emotional content is parental and, i guess if I understand the term, "little"