I wanted something memorable and meaningful as it's not often you tell people how much they mean to you.
I just want to quickly jot down something in admiration and appreciation of all those ladies in my life who have changed it or me in ways I never knew possible. Since joining zity I was always a kid/baby who needed someone to guide and teach me the ways of kink life. However, for years being on here I rarely had that and I also rarely listened. I was less compromising in my pursuit of whatever it was I was looking for as I had no real idea of it. I can't say it was only those here since I've had many friends else where who've helped change my views on how I handle situations. But that is not why I'm making this post. I want to leave little doubt in any of your minds all those amazing people who have turned this curious baby boy into a more confident toddler. Yes, I am still technically a baby! I'm an adult in diapers who acts like one, believe me! lol.
Let me explain a bit about me. I have a personality that craves human interaction even though I hate most people. Yeah, it's difficult all the time. I generally approach people with respect and a care free sort of perspective. It's taken years to develop it and it's by no means perfect. However, I can admit with confidence it works 80% to 90% of the time. Ok, it's likely 90% but I didn't want to sound full of myself. It's just who I am that makes people feel comfortable around me. I have a talent for it. I think I got it from my father and his father. I've almost never had a problem getting people to like me. There have been may times I think "I WAS THERE AND I DON'T BELIEVE IT.". I didn't know why exactly for years so I started paying more attention to it and I've learned it's because I don't hold their flaws over their head like a vice. I show respect to all the time, even when I hate to do so. I allow these people to be who they are and against my own emotional impact, I either pretend to not know or not care. In most cases I don't actually care. I'm able to accept you for you even though at times I have difficulty accepting me for me. I have a flaw and it's a big one at times. I care more about others then I do for myself and I did not know that for years until eventually I fell into a very dark hole. I was trapped for nearly 4 years and I couldn't find my way out, I was unresponsive to my family or friends. I thought of terrible things and I will never feel more powerless in my whole life ever again. When your own mind turns against you. *takes a deep breath* I'm better now. I'm back to interacting and back to making friends and taking each day as it comes. LIFE, loves giving you a good punch in the face to wake you up or just kicking people off of cliffs. Life has no master so life does what life wants. I eventually found my own way to deal with my own problems. It took me so long to learn I'm not the only one in that department. I look down this infinitely long isle and see literally everyone I've ever encountered each dealing with their own level of bull shit. I've learned we all have problems and we all deal with them our own ways. This understanding is a major factor in making friends. Hell dealing with people! Did I mention I hate people!? Let me be clear, I hate people who know they are in a bad place and know how to fix it, but never do till they are in a much worse situation then previously. I hate people who are smart that make stupid choices. I hate stupid people who continue to be stupid but hey, we all need something to laugh at that makes us reflect on our own lives.
Crazy things happen all throughout our lives and if you don't stop to look, you may miss it. There have been bat shit crazy things I've seen and done that I never in all my life thought possible. I've made friends online who are not just people to me. They are a part of me and my family. OK! It's a kinky family, but still I hold it close to my heart all the time. How does a person meet someone and connect with them to form a family? Shared experiences, it's a simple concept with unforeseen possibilities. I'll admit I have actually made friends after I was taken over their knee for a sound spanking! NO JOKE! Zity is a unpredictable place for damn sure. There are far to many possibilities, it would make you go insane to think about. I've had people change my views and change my diapers! I still can't pick which is better! I've made friends whom are curious to learn and those wanting to experiment safely with someone. I have made friends of those that are controlling and those that are submissive. I have made countless impact on others and in turn with me. I have come a long way from the inexperienced little boy I was when I first joined. NOW I AM A DIAPERED TODDLER! I WENT BACKWARDS I KNOW SHUT UP! LMFAO. I have met far too many people in my time here and all of them I hold dear to my heart. Except those uncomfortable ones they can fuck off and never return. The ones who've impacted me the most are the ones I will be mentioning in this post. You've all done some influencing but I have a shitty memory so details go out the window at times.
I'll go in alphabetical order because I can and you can't stop me! Man, I am a bratty toddler at times. Good thing I know ladies who spank. Some names are out of order and if you know those people, you will then know why. The following are those who have influenced my life in the most memorable ways I can't forget. And those unmentioned are just as impactful to my soul as great friends.
@chester89 and @Fencer55 Anyone who was around when these two entered chat you knew the night was only just beginning. Those two impacted my bott.. I mean my life in so many ways it was magical when they were around. Their friendship opened my eyes to so many different aspects of life.
@DST Is a good friend and while I did try being his little baby boy I learned it wasn't for me. I'm not comfortable with men doing anything sexual to me. That doesn't say I don't enjoy being babied and cared for by a man. It's just not my cup of tea.
@enemary This woman is very special to me in so many ways it's hard to explain. With her I can be dominant with little effort and for me it's almost impossible to call upon those feelings. I'm not generally a dominant person, while I have done it in the past, I'm more comfortable being dommed. I learned from interacting with her it's not that I can't be dominant but that I can only do it with certain people I have a connection with.
@Forumtester You all know him and you all love him. He is my friend and has been a serious impact on my life on zity. I'm having a hard time trying to count or specify one specific time he helped me with a problem because he never stops helping. I'm also constantly influenced by his works of art on this ever changing world of zity.biz
@Mashie Do I really need to explain this one?
@MissStress The one who has been watching over me ever since getting to know me here. I don't think there was ever anyone who did a better job of that back then. Without always directly stepping in, she still watched over me in times when I wasn't sure what I was doing or times I needed help. I have found her to be a guiding force in my time here.
@neapolitan7th cuckoldry fascinated me but his level of actually experiencing it makes me seriously want to try it. Both parties understanding each others limits of course and understanding of each others feelings.
@ruthiney There are times when I'm chatting and being my silly toddler self when someone comes along and asserts their authority over me. In some cases it's unwanted and others it's accepted. In her case it was simply this. I'm her little boy and must accept it. I must refer to her as aunty or be spanked. If I attempt to behave as an adult in any capacity I will be put back into my place. I have no idea how but she saw right through me and had me blubbering and timid in seconds. For those that know me I love that shit.
@toshe63 Oh boy. What a woman. I've never met anyone in my whole life as open and accepting as her. It's still a struggle to comprehend it. I forget the exact first encounter but I will never forget the friendship. How could I? She is just incredible. She isn't such that of a dom to me in the sense I fear so much as I respect her level of control she inflicts on me. It's more subtle to most relationships I've had with dom/sub but that doesn't mean she isn't afraid to spank my bottom and put me in timeout. She is sort of like a mother in that she cares for me and of me resembles it but she isn't like any mom you've never known.
The relationship I have with her and Ruth is far more then women to discipline and care for me. It's hard to depict exactly how. I just know that my life wouldn't be the same without either of them and I owe both of them so much that it actually is incomprehensible. Ruth.... Aunty Ruth's word is law if I disobey it's pants down for an OTK spanking before I have time to explain. Toshe is understanding and informative much like that of a teacher. I wouldn't mind some teacher student after school lessons from her either! They both have great respect for me and I for them ten fold. I'm stubborn but they are more stubborn then me since they won't leave.
Unnamed contributor: I have a friend whom I talk to a lot about certain things I'd rather hide or other wise deny. Our talks have made me feel more confident in accepting a side of me. I am a sissy baby. I actually enjoy it far more then I ever could have imagined. I crave the attention from it and all the little trappings. I have many friends I talk to but this is just a different kind of friendship. Think of it like this, if I'm a sissy, I am therefore a femmed boy and this allows for me to be considered or deemed a girl in some ways. And girls have girlfriends they talk about sensitive stuff. She is my confidant in the world of "sissy" and I had no idea what I was missing out on. I learned more about how and why I have these feelings and not to feel less of myself for it. While I openly show that I do not feel that what I almost have to be aggressive in that stance. Deep down I felt it was something wrong with me or something I shouldn't openly express. The reasoning for hiding it is simply put. I am a man who has no want to self identify as female. I'm not into men and I am not your typical sissy as per what the dictionary says. I have a voice I can stand up for myself. However, I need a woman who can show me who I am when I try to deny it. Weather if be coerced or asked for. I am honored to have such a person in my life.
To all those unmentioned you are just as meaningful to me as the rest you all have your own special places in my heart and I will cherish every moment my mind has not forgotten yet. You are all my friends and family and I can't express it enough how much that means to me. I want you all to know how much you mean to me even though this day is mostly for couples and BS. It's still a day of showing love to those you care about and I care to much at times. Also this part is only for those who enjoy it. IF YOU DON'T THEN STOP READING. Only warning I'm giving and if you can't read that then I can't help you not read the rest of this blog.
*waddles over to each woman and gives each of them a vary special super hug from me*